it's my life, let me live it the way I want to...please
Well I've managed to make my mom sad/mad at me once again. This time it was by telling her that I was planning on going for the ROTC scholarship this year to be able to attened UCF.
Her first words were...."what do you have to do for it?" I said "it's a lot of physical stuff"...she laughed. Then she asked "don't you have to enlist or reserves afterwards" and I said "Yes", then she got a sad look on her face and said they send reserves out to front line and I told her that wouldn't happen and she started crying saying that I didn't know that for sure. Then me being me got mad because she gives me this shit that whatever I decide to do with my life she'll support. That's bullshit, #1 she dosen't think I'm capable of even getting the scholarship and #2 she obviously dosen't suport me saying that I lvoe ROTC now because there's no threat to me but once I sign those papers they can send me where ever they want....did it ever occur to her that that's what I want, for them to just send me away somewhere?? Just so I can get away from here. I don't have the money for college and neither does she, where ever I decide to go I'm paying for, if I'm over 50 thou, in debt once I graduate she's not paying it off it's me. So why not let them pay for my college and get away from here?
Now she just called my cell and told me she elft for half an hour and she'd be back. I can't stand living here anymore, she's held onto me for so long and put all her attention on me that's she's starting to drive me away.....I just want to leave.
I'm going for a ride too.
Her first words were...."what do you have to do for it?" I said "it's a lot of physical stuff"...she laughed. Then she asked "don't you have to enlist or reserves afterwards" and I said "Yes", then she got a sad look on her face and said they send reserves out to front line and I told her that wouldn't happen and she started crying saying that I didn't know that for sure. Then me being me got mad because she gives me this shit that whatever I decide to do with my life she'll support. That's bullshit, #1 she dosen't think I'm capable of even getting the scholarship and #2 she obviously dosen't suport me saying that I lvoe ROTC now because there's no threat to me but once I sign those papers they can send me where ever they want....did it ever occur to her that that's what I want, for them to just send me away somewhere?? Just so I can get away from here. I don't have the money for college and neither does she, where ever I decide to go I'm paying for, if I'm over 50 thou, in debt once I graduate she's not paying it off it's me. So why not let them pay for my college and get away from here?
Now she just called my cell and told me she elft for half an hour and she'd be back. I can't stand living here anymore, she's held onto me for so long and put all her attention on me that's she's starting to drive me away.....I just want to leave.
I'm going for a ride too.