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Lately I've taken to eating only banana-nut muffins, touching myself and others a lot, thinking about boy incessantly, and finding pictures of deconstructive poses.
The middle and last are due to the start of "Rocky Horror" rehearsals.
The first I can't really explain at all except to say um...they're good?
The third disturbs me. And makes me feel as usual, like a silly school girl.
Yesterday I saw a therapist to be "evaluated" as to whether or not I am actually as crazy as I claim. Turns out I am. Hahahah. Today I saw a different therapist to begin my "treatment". It was awkward and not as comfortable as yesterday. She thinks the root of my problem is my perfectionism. I think the root of my problem is something more along the lines of a I need a straight jacket and electicity. She made me do lots of breathing in the colors. We'll see how it goes. Anytime I feel "low" as she says it, I have to figure out the specific though that triggered it and log it in a journal. She's going to be frightened when she sees this log. Maybe I can publish it as a horror novel, sell the movie rights, and become rich simply because I'm insane. Ohhhh the hopes and dreams.
The middle and last are due to the start of "Rocky Horror" rehearsals.
The first I can't really explain at all except to say um...they're good?
The third disturbs me. And makes me feel as usual, like a silly school girl.
Yesterday I saw a therapist to be "evaluated" as to whether or not I am actually as crazy as I claim. Turns out I am. Hahahah. Today I saw a different therapist to begin my "treatment". It was awkward and not as comfortable as yesterday. She thinks the root of my problem is my perfectionism. I think the root of my problem is something more along the lines of a I need a straight jacket and electicity. She made me do lots of breathing in the colors. We'll see how it goes. Anytime I feel "low" as she says it, I have to figure out the specific though that triggered it and log it in a journal. She's going to be frightened when she sees this log. Maybe I can publish it as a horror novel, sell the movie rights, and become rich simply because I'm insane. Ohhhh the hopes and dreams.