just hug my lips and say good lies.
gaaaawd. what a weekend.
is he faking drunken ambivalence? or does he remember making my lower lip engorged for hours? i'm not going to fret about it because i feel terribly guilty for giving into something that could destroy so many relationship. two can play the ambivalence game. and i am a pro.
a great way to ruin my sunny sunday morning: park your car, watch me walk into blue line, open the door, see me at the end of the line, and turn right around and drive away. that's awesome. do it more often, please.
did i turn on the ice cold "playing it cool" so much that it's causes you to avoid every social situation with me? kathleen was the one to bring it to my attention: that my playing it cool is so severe. but how and when did my defense mechanism turn into such an extreme form of isolation? i do it only when i feel pushed out. especially for no good reason (or for the lack of communicating a reason). but in his case it was so unwarranted. i didn't deserve it. i just want him to man up, grow a pair of balls, and tell me why a glance in my general direction is so dreadful.
i should work on that. not playing it cool anymore. if someone can't be open and blunt with me, instead of shutting them out i should embrace it. ignore the elephant between us and just start over. defense mechanism hasn't been working out for me for a few years now...
fuck! why did that ruin my day! why do i check his facebook to see who he's talking to! why am i such a door mat and emotional wet blanket! i was seriously doing so well - despite the fact i had distraction in my bed! fuck shit cock.
is he faking drunken ambivalence? or does he remember making my lower lip engorged for hours? i'm not going to fret about it because i feel terribly guilty for giving into something that could destroy so many relationship. two can play the ambivalence game. and i am a pro.
a great way to ruin my sunny sunday morning: park your car, watch me walk into blue line, open the door, see me at the end of the line, and turn right around and drive away. that's awesome. do it more often, please.
did i turn on the ice cold "playing it cool" so much that it's causes you to avoid every social situation with me? kathleen was the one to bring it to my attention: that my playing it cool is so severe. but how and when did my defense mechanism turn into such an extreme form of isolation? i do it only when i feel pushed out. especially for no good reason (or for the lack of communicating a reason). but in his case it was so unwarranted. i didn't deserve it. i just want him to man up, grow a pair of balls, and tell me why a glance in my general direction is so dreadful.
i should work on that. not playing it cool anymore. if someone can't be open and blunt with me, instead of shutting them out i should embrace it. ignore the elephant between us and just start over. defense mechanism hasn't been working out for me for a few years now...
fuck! why did that ruin my day! why do i check his facebook to see who he's talking to! why am i such a door mat and emotional wet blanket! i was seriously doing so well - despite the fact i had distraction in my bed! fuck shit cock.