intimately rearranged.
lately i've had recurring dreams. well, i guess themes in dreams is more precise. but there's always a scene where my hair catches fire and i roam around with a singed head of hear.
and the curious, symbolic girl that i am - i thought i would look up the interpretation of said happenings:
To see something burning, indicates that you are experiencing some intense emotions and/or passionate sexual feelings. There is some situation or issue that you can no longer avoid and ignore. Alternatively, it may suggests that you need to take time off for yourself and relax. Consider also how you may be feeling "burned out" or "burned up".
To dream that you are losing your hair, denotes that you are concerned with the notion that you are getting older and losing your sex appeal/virility. You are preoccupied with aging and your appearance. Losing you hair also signify a lack of strength and that you do not possess the power to succeed in an undertaking. You may be feeling weak and vulnerable.
hmm. well. neither of which is good news. nor is it false.
since the whole mike thing i feel like i have lost my attractiveness. i say that rather than sex appeal, because i've never seen myself as having sex appeal. i definitely don't flaunt what i have. i usually let my personality do the talking rather than my tits.
it rings true, though. my recent purchases of bras, makeup, and heels - all of which is new to me - are examples of me feeling like i need to do something to avoid fading into the wallpaper.
i complain during the school year about the impossibility of taking time for myself... sort things out and come to conclusions. but with two weeks left of break and i feel like all this time on my hands may cause a manic breakdown. i have nothing to focus my mind on. no organizing to do.
i already decided to forget about mike (and doing well at it, actually). now i'm back to that feeling of content but restless and anxious. i need to put my mind to something. even books aren't doing the trick.
i would download music, but my file sharing program is freakin'.
so... i'll stare at the wall for now.
and the curious, symbolic girl that i am - i thought i would look up the interpretation of said happenings:
To see something burning, indicates that you are experiencing some intense emotions and/or passionate sexual feelings. There is some situation or issue that you can no longer avoid and ignore. Alternatively, it may suggests that you need to take time off for yourself and relax. Consider also how you may be feeling "burned out" or "burned up".
To dream that you are losing your hair, denotes that you are concerned with the notion that you are getting older and losing your sex appeal/virility. You are preoccupied with aging and your appearance. Losing you hair also signify a lack of strength and that you do not possess the power to succeed in an undertaking. You may be feeling weak and vulnerable.
hmm. well. neither of which is good news. nor is it false.
since the whole mike thing i feel like i have lost my attractiveness. i say that rather than sex appeal, because i've never seen myself as having sex appeal. i definitely don't flaunt what i have. i usually let my personality do the talking rather than my tits.
it rings true, though. my recent purchases of bras, makeup, and heels - all of which is new to me - are examples of me feeling like i need to do something to avoid fading into the wallpaper.
i complain during the school year about the impossibility of taking time for myself... sort things out and come to conclusions. but with two weeks left of break and i feel like all this time on my hands may cause a manic breakdown. i have nothing to focus my mind on. no organizing to do.
i already decided to forget about mike (and doing well at it, actually). now i'm back to that feeling of content but restless and anxious. i need to put my mind to something. even books aren't doing the trick.
i would download music, but my file sharing program is freakin'.
so... i'll stare at the wall for now.