letter from the west coast.
abby - you honestly came at the best time. due to the great loss of a friend/love, i thing the mixes will be the best cure. i've been in a rut lately, musically and emotionally i think. so your letter & mixes made my heart ache with happiness - longing for my beloved city and for good friends. which you are very much to me. so thank you.
today i spent more than i really needed to on clothes. i do this when i'm feeling blue. go nuts buying things i absolutely do not need. which money i need to be saving. note to self: no more clothes. for the rest of the summer. i have no space nor the funds to keep this bad habit. done!
this is an old song, to me. it has various meanings, but listening to it today whilst driving made it clear that it is applicable to my loss of love. loss of a friend. someone great is gone, and i can't repair it.
I wish that we could talk about it,
But there, that's the problem.
With someone new I could have started,
Too late, for beginnings.
The little things that made me harassed,
Are gone, in a moment.
I miss the way we used to argue,
Locked, in your basement.
I wake up and the phone is ringing,
Surprised, as it's early.
And that should be the perfect warning,
That something's, a problem.
To tell the truth I saw it coming,
The way, you were breathing.
But nothing can prepare you for it,
The voice, on the other, end.
The worst is all the lovely weather,
I'm sad, it's not raining.
The coffee isn't even bitter,
Because, what's the difference?
There's all the work that needs to be done,
It's late, for revision.
There's all the time and all the planning,
And songs, to be finished.
And it keeps coming,
Till the day it stops.
I wish that we could talk about it,
But there, that's the problem.
With someone new I could have started,
Too late, for beginnings.
You're smaller than my wife imagined,
Surprised, you were human.
There shouldn't be this ring of silence,
But what, are the options?
When someone great is gone.
We're safe, for the moment.
Saved,
For the moment
