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So.
Prom was beautiful up until 10:00, when I was politely escorted outside to only to be told that my overly "expressive" and "engaged" behavior was inappropriate decorum for the prom. I said nothing. Returned to my seat, and miserably finished the night in throes of anger, as it set in that I'd just experienced my first adult brush with homophobia.
Saturday, I woke up furious. Furious that I said nothing. Thinking of what I should've said. Thinking of what I should've done. Trying to understand how my principal could actually overlook all of the heterosexual couples that commenced the night with simulated sex on the dance floor, and groping over dinner, only to find my affection offensive. I felt broken. I felt helpless. I felt like if I'd behaved as an adult, I would've stood up for myself. And it occurred to me, I am an adult. I realized that part of being the bigger person requires being tolerant of the shortcomings of others, these being ignorance and bigotry. Still, I wish for the strength and integrity I couldn't muster at that moment, because the memory of my ambivalence will haunt me.
Tonight, I saw The DaVinci Code. I will never see it again.
Oh, and umm, I never heard of a white person being albino. Correct me if I'm wrong.
Prom was beautiful up until 10:00, when I was politely escorted outside to only to be told that my overly "expressive" and "engaged" behavior was inappropriate decorum for the prom. I said nothing. Returned to my seat, and miserably finished the night in throes of anger, as it set in that I'd just experienced my first adult brush with homophobia.
Saturday, I woke up furious. Furious that I said nothing. Thinking of what I should've said. Thinking of what I should've done. Trying to understand how my principal could actually overlook all of the heterosexual couples that commenced the night with simulated sex on the dance floor, and groping over dinner, only to find my affection offensive. I felt broken. I felt helpless. I felt like if I'd behaved as an adult, I would've stood up for myself. And it occurred to me, I am an adult. I realized that part of being the bigger person requires being tolerant of the shortcomings of others, these being ignorance and bigotry. Still, I wish for the strength and integrity I couldn't muster at that moment, because the memory of my ambivalence will haunt me.
Tonight, I saw The DaVinci Code. I will never see it again.
Oh, and umm, I never heard of a white person being albino. Correct me if I'm wrong.