horizons sucks.
well, im no longer at trabuco.
but im sure most of you already knew that.
so far, it kinda sucks.
i only go to school once a week...
so all the other days when im home,
its like living in prision.
actually, i dont know what life is like in prision.
so i take that back. but it sucks.
my mom made like 2384792384 rules for me while im home.
and she doesnt ever leave me home alone.
i even have to go with her to drop
the girls off at school in the morning.
ughh.... it sucks.
and my parents keep reminding me of
how bad ive fucked things up.
which doesnt help -- cause of my depression.
the depression has been worse latley.
seems like its only like that when im at home tho.
when im at my grandmas house during the day,
its alright. but still.
i get really pist off sometimes, usually when
my parents yell at me.
then the whole suicidal thoughts thing kicks in.
and i just gotta get out of the house.
ugh it sucks.
i get to see my counselor on monday tho.
so ill pour everything out to her.
cause im so frustrated with my life right now.
i dont like the way im living it,
but i dont know how to fix it.
gosh im so stuck. and it sucks.
i think ill email shaun or donny or something.
i dunno.
ok so a few good things in my life right now...
im getting my hair dyed in like 30 minutes.
were doing it purple instead of pink.
so i hope it comes out ok.
i totally love john robert fary.
like, alot. alot x 23472349128734. :]
hehe. hes so cute.
i get to see him this weekend. yayyy!
ok well i gotta get going.
blahhhh.
ill talk to you guys later.
I LOVE YOU!
<3erinmichelle.