Mirror, mirror
I remembered today how much I love figuring things out. And how much I love doing like, statistic type stuff and working out an answer that makes sense, that takes multiple factors into account. Because I really do enjoy doing that. And being able to do that for people, and interpret it in a meaningful way, without them needing to fully understand how to get there.
I also recently rekindled my love of people. Helping, helping them figure themselves out, just helping, whatever. Mostly by just being able to talk and bounce things off someone else. I don't know how long that will last, and I'll be a little empty again when it leaves. But I'm working on it. I'm working on not overdoing it, and not feeling burnt out, and not reading into people too much. I'm still a little damaged from Sarah. But this time I don't really feel it right now. I feel okay, I don't feel drained right now. That's a good sign, and I'm happy about it.
I've felt pretty alive recently. I like that. Those times when you actually feel, just, alive. It's not about my life or what's going on (or not going on) in it. It's not about my job, or anything else. Just, the process that is alive. Not even a human thing. Animals feel it. They know when they're alive, and when they're not feeling it quite so much. Probably better than we do, I think they pay more attention.
I enrolled in an income tax class for this fall. It's H&R Block's income tax prep course. It runs mid-September through Thanksgiving. I'm really looking forward to it. I've also started (actually started this time!) re-teaching myself spanish. There are some online resources that I'm using and my mom let me borrow some CDs for the computer and an excellent book. I'm feeling good.
I'm feeling good.
I also recently rekindled my love of people. Helping, helping them figure themselves out, just helping, whatever. Mostly by just being able to talk and bounce things off someone else. I don't know how long that will last, and I'll be a little empty again when it leaves. But I'm working on it. I'm working on not overdoing it, and not feeling burnt out, and not reading into people too much. I'm still a little damaged from Sarah. But this time I don't really feel it right now. I feel okay, I don't feel drained right now. That's a good sign, and I'm happy about it.
I've felt pretty alive recently. I like that. Those times when you actually feel, just, alive. It's not about my life or what's going on (or not going on) in it. It's not about my job, or anything else. Just, the process that is alive. Not even a human thing. Animals feel it. They know when they're alive, and when they're not feeling it quite so much. Probably better than we do, I think they pay more attention.
I enrolled in an income tax class for this fall. It's H&R Block's income tax prep course. It runs mid-September through Thanksgiving. I'm really looking forward to it. I've also started (actually started this time!) re-teaching myself spanish. There are some online resources that I'm using and my mom let me borrow some CDs for the computer and an excellent book. I'm feeling good.
I'm feeling good.