i don't know.... bare with me
Its hard to not get frustrated with life right now. My job is full time and hard enough without being 5 days a week. College is still confusing for me and I keep telling myself it will be worth it and it will get better but i have yet to see any proof to back that up. And to top it off im more than frustrated with my non-existent "love-life".
Its hard to ignor reality when a sign is right in front of you like "Girlfriend" by Miss Avril Lavigne. YES i love the song and don't care if im a loser for doing so. I deal with it... so can everyone else. :-P heh. in one way it tells me to suck up my fear and just tell him how i feel. But in another way I feel like I'm wasting my time, since half the time i feel hurt by his lack of showing me how he feels, if he feels anything for me at all. Life is too short for what ifs, and i keep teling myself that but i do nothing about it. and idk what hurts more. I want to be me, i don't want to worry about him, or anything else, i want to go on my merry way and everything else can observe me from afar.
Its hard to ignor reality when a sign is right in front of you like "Girlfriend" by Miss Avril Lavigne. YES i love the song and don't care if im a loser for doing so. I deal with it... so can everyone else. :-P heh. in one way it tells me to suck up my fear and just tell him how i feel. But in another way I feel like I'm wasting my time, since half the time i feel hurt by his lack of showing me how he feels, if he feels anything for me at all. Life is too short for what ifs, and i keep teling myself that but i do nothing about it. and idk what hurts more. I want to be me, i don't want to worry about him, or anything else, i want to go on my merry way and everything else can observe me from afar.