[Accidental Video]

[godlessblossom]

[The tablet turns on and it quickly becomes obvious that the owner is not aware it is on, especially since the camera is first blocked by a piece of dark fabric and when the owner steps forward it is clear it was a part of her dark kimono. Misaki slowly kneels down in front of a makeshift altar, a round table that has been torn in half and placed

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[lepidopterans]

You look very lovely in the kimono. I'm sorry the tablets interrupted your ceremony. [A pause]

I'm not certain what to make of her, though I do know that nothing good ever comes from such powerful people thinking they're worthy of making such important decisions.

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[godlessblossom]

Thank you, no harm was done. I simply would rather some had not seen something I had kept secret. [She inclines her head in gratitude none-the-less.]

As for Themis, I must agree. I think we may have all experienced a situation where somebody in power made a decision which hurt us and the ones we care for. It is not something we can change, unfortunately. We have learned time and time again that we are powerless in this place.

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[lepidopterans]

Do you mind me asking what you were keeping a secret? [Because she can't quite figure out what there could be secret.]

I don't believe we're completely powerless here, at least not as much as some seem to think.

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[godlessblossom]

What can we do, in your opinion?

[She glances toward the mini shrine.]

I wanted to keep at least one secret to myself in this place. It did not matter what, just that I had one secret to myself that this place would not expose. Now I have nothing.

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[lepidopterans]

We can fight on, never giving up, never letting them have the satisfaction of breaking us.

I'm sorry you lost that. It's still yours though, you still have it.

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[godlessblossom]

[She turns the video to private and her expression is pained.]

No, I have nothing. For as much as this place has given me it has taken things away. Even now I am fighting this feeling of panic. I am constantly afraid that if I close my eyes for too long, or am without somebody near or speaking to me, that I will suddenly find myself alone in a room with no food, no windows, nothing except the visions of my past and so many others. I have lost my friends, I have witnessed my friends go through torture and they do not even know of it, I am constantly manipulated to harm those around me. They can remove our memories, put in new ones, manipulate our emotions, and toy with us every day.

[She shakes her head, lowering it so her hair covers her face.]

I have nothing left that is mine and I am broken.

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[lepidopterans]

You have you they cannot take that from you. Don't let them. I have been through all of those things before in my own world; I lost my body, I lost my soul, I lost my life, and I lost all that I was. I have been a pawn, a toy, and a puppet for someone else's entertainment. I understand how much it hurts and how broken down you must feel. You just have to find the strength to keep going, I'm certain you can do that.

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[godlessblossom]

[She sighs, reaching a hand up to fix the flower in her hair.]

I do not feel strong. How did you find your strength?

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[lepidopterans]

I do not always feel that strong, especially lately. [She's silent for a second.] I'm not certain where I found it, I suppose it came when I killed a man who had taken everything from me.

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[godlessblossom]

I have never heard of killing making everything better. Usually people say to avoid revenge.

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[lepidopterans]

I've found myself wondering if the people who say that have ever felt the need for revenge before. [She sighs.] It's not something I'd suggest, I don't regret it, but it's not the path that most should take. However, it was the way that helped me to start towards finding my own strength again.

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[godlessblossom]

Then it worked out for the best. I would not even know where to start if I wanted revenge.

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[lepidopterans]

What do you mean?

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[godlessblossom]

You had your revenge and found your strength so it worked out for the best. If you mean what I mean by not knowing where to start then that is more difficult.

I cannot exact revenge on any of the deities in this place, the people who harmed me when I was younger are dead, I cannot harm myself further than this place has for the wrong actions I have taken, and so I am left with nothing. There is no revenge to be had and I am not sure where or how to find my strength.

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[lepidopterans]

Do you want to find strength, or would you be content with giving up and allowing this place to destroy you completely?

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[godlessblossom]

[There's no hesitation in her answer, despite her somber mood.]

I would like to find strength.