"Could i have been anyone other than me "
Today is a day to record in my shitty memorie book in my head .. Which is already filled with shit ...
I talked to my mother today she is at jacks she called me and talked but so calmly she said oh im moving with star in dec to pa .. are you coming .. thats just lovely .. her youngest ... Me .. is having a baby in oct and already asked for help because i dont have a clue how im going to do it on my own .. I can tbelieve my mother go help a 29 year old who is married and not her 19 youngest .. I dont understand .. Why does my family hate me so much and love my lazy ass sister .. I dont understand i really give up i cant take all this su rfering .. I really wish i wasnt born most days ..
I still havent called my dad and told him .. Im too scared that he will hate me more .. but at this point i need to i dont care it will just make me what cry more what a shock .. thats nothing ..
Joel is having his surgery for his epilepzy next week so i have to take care of him .. WHich puts way more stress that i need on me ..
Im just scared .. of life
I talked to my mother today she is at jacks she called me and talked but so calmly she said oh im moving with star in dec to pa .. are you coming .. thats just lovely .. her youngest ... Me .. is having a baby in oct and already asked for help because i dont have a clue how im going to do it on my own .. I can tbelieve my mother go help a 29 year old who is married and not her 19 youngest .. I dont understand .. Why does my family hate me so much and love my lazy ass sister .. I dont understand i really give up i cant take all this su rfering .. I really wish i wasnt born most days ..
I still havent called my dad and told him .. Im too scared that he will hate me more .. but at this point i need to i dont care it will just make me what cry more what a shock .. thats nothing ..
Joel is having his surgery for his epilepzy next week so i have to take care of him .. WHich puts way more stress that i need on me ..
Im just scared .. of life