Experiencing Everything
Title: Experiencing Everything
Rating: N-17
Word count: 2650
Summary: “Isn’t now the time to be adventurous?” Blaine had asked. “Don’t you want to experience everything this world has to offer?”
Warnings: Spoilers for episode 3.6, an abundance of fluff
*I do not, I will never own the characters of Glee*
This is my canon for next week's episode! I should be studying for exams but my brain would not rest until I had finished it! Any mistakes are my own, hope you like it :)
Kurt wishes that Blaine would stop looking at him.
Kurt felt Blaine’s worried, mournful eyes on Kurt’s face like a physical touch when they passed each other in the corridors, sat in the cafeteria at lunch, sat in glee club....
God what a mess.
Blaine had returned from his visit to Dalton a bundle of energy. He told Kurt of a new Warbler that he had met. His name was Sebastian apparently, and he was gay too. He told Blaine that he knew the bouncer to a local gay club that was throwing a party on Saturday night and would let them get inside without ID. Blaine’s eyes shone with excitement when he described what the boy had told him.
“Just think,” Blaine lowered his voice conspiratorially as they stood next to their lockers, “we would be able to hang out with people like us for a night. We wouldn’t have to be ashamed to hold hands, or kiss around other people. We would be normal even if it was just for one night.”
“Isn’t now the time to be adventurous?” He had asked. “Don’t you want to experience everything this world has to offer?”
How could Kurt say no to that? What if Blaine got bored with Kurt? What if he went to the club by himself and this Sebastian guy was there...
So they went.
Sebastian met them outside of the club. He was tall, gorgeous and had a smile like a shark that had spotted its prey as Blaine walked over and shook his hand. Kurt quickly introduced himself as Blaine’s boyfriend. He noticed that Sebastian’s grin faltered, changing into a smirk as his eyes travelled over Kurt’s body and finally landed on his possessive, determined expression.
Just as he promised, the bouncer didn’t ask for identification and let them in quickly and subtly, gruffly telling them to have a good night as they passed.
Adrenaline pumped through their bodies as strongly as the thrum of the music of the club. It was dark and the room was filled with men of every age colour and size- chatting, laughing and dancing. Kurt caught Blaine’s eyes and smiled at him as he reached out to hold his hand. No one was going to call him poofter, porcelain or homo here... he was just one of the crowd. It was liberating.
Three cocktails later and Kurt felt more relaxed and comfortable in his surroundings than he could remember being in his life. Blaine had volunteered to be the designated driver so he wasn’t drinking, but from his elated expression Blaine didn’t need alcohol to enjoy where they were doing tonight. Blaine told Kurt that it was his way of apologising for the last time he got drunk at the New Directions party. Kurt rolled his eyes and joked that he had recurring nightmares about the train wreck that was the brief and painful Blaine/Berry kiss. In all honesty Kurt was happy that he was able to use alcohol to calm his nerves tonight, and was grateful that his first experience in a club was with someone he loved and that would watch out for him.
He and Blaine cheered when a black cross-dresser in a gorgeous red dress sang his heart out to a Tina Turner song on the stage. They laughed and danced together in the crowd that permeated the masculine smell of sweat and cologne. A variety of stereotypical songs pumped loudly through the club... ABBA, The Village People, Diana Ross... it was all starting to blur.
They were dancing to Kylie Minogue when Blaine pulled back and put his hands on either side of Kurt’s face. He kissed Kurt passionately, the alcohol and the music releasing all inhibitions. Kurt felt like his world was pulled apart and put back together with that one single kiss. When they finally pulled apart they were both panting and Blaine’s eyes were glassy as he stared at Kurt’s swollen lips. Their bodies were pressed together as tightly as they could be, no longer moving to the music that thrummed around them. Their bodies were pressed so tightly that Kurt could feel every ridge and bump of Blaine’s body, including one rather prominent bump... oh... OH.
Kurt moved his hips lightly to confirm exactly what his body was feeling. Blaine moaned as he closed his eyes and buried his face in Kurt’s neck.
“I think I’m ready to go now Kurt” Blaine spoke loudly into his ear so that he could be heard over the music.
Blaine’s voice sounded chocked and needy, and Kurt nodded quickly reaching for his hand.
Kurt held Blaine’s hand tightly so they did not become parted as they pushed their way through sweaty bodies to get to the entrance.
When they reached the doors they were both laughing, high with exhilaration of what they had done. They were both usually such rule-abiding, well behaved boys. To act so rebellious together felt fantastic.
They stumbled to Blaine’s black SUV giggling as Blaine sung and imitated the Tina Turner impersonator. The headlights on the car flashed as Blaine unlocked his car and he was still singing when he moved to open the door to the back seat.
“Blaine?” Kurt had asked, confused to why he Blaine was getting into the back seat. “Are you still ok to drive home?”
“Kurt, come here” Blaine reached out his and to pull Kurt into the back seat of the car. It was dark inside with the lights from the club flickering softly of Blaine’s face. Blaine reached past Kurt to pull the back door closed behind him .
“Blaine?” Kurt asked again, “What are you...”
Kurt’s question was hindered by Blaine lying along the back seat and pulling on Kurt’s shoulders so that he fell heavily on top of him. Blaine wasted no time pulling Kurt’s head down and capturing his lips between his own. Kurt gasped as their tongues moved against each other.
Blaine threw his head back, his eyes squeezed tightly shut and his mouth parted as Kurt slowly kissed down his neck, sucking gently on the joint between his neck and shoulder and then trailing back up to lightly lick and suck his earlobe.
When Kurt slid his hands under his shirt and ran them over the soft muscles of his stomach, Blaine seemed to lose all control. He rolled them over on the back seat kissed Kurt roughly on the mouth. Blaine pinned Kurt’s hands down on the seat next to his head and rocked his hips forcefully into Kurt’s.
Kurt’s eyes opened in shock when he felt Blaine’s erection pressing into his own. Blaine groaned roughly above him, now attacking Kurt’s neck with licks and small bites.
“Blaine!” Kurt gasped, as Blaine rolled his hips over Kurt’s again. “Wait, Blaine!”
Kurt attempted to sit up but Blaine pushed him back down again, kissing his mouth and pinning him down with his body.
Kurt started to shake as a rush of fear pulsed through his body. He pushed up on Blaine’s shoulders more forcefully this time, and moved his head to the side so that Blaine could no longer kiss his mouth.
“Blaine stop! Get off me!” Kurt yelled, his voice sounding tight and panicked.
“Kurt what’s wrong?” Blaine sat up and Kurt pushed himself up to lean in corner as far away from Blaine as possible.
“What’s wrong?” Kurt asked, staring at Blaine in shock. “What’s wrong! What were you trying to do? Have sex with me in the back seat of the car? I can’t believe you just forced yourself on me like that!”
“Force myself on you?” Blaine’s eyes narrowed in anger. “I was just trying to do something spontaneous and fun! How could you even say something like that? Don’t you want to be with me? Jesus Kurt we have been dating for 6 months now!”
“You know I want you Blaine.” Kurt said, his voice turned cold and quiet “I have never felt this way about anyone. But I did not want my first time to be a drunken tumble in the back seat of the car. God, you know I am nervous about intimacy, we have had this discussion before!”
“I know that Kurt, that’s why I drove tonight! I thought maybe if you had a few drinks you would be relaxed and less nervous about this kind of stuff...”
Blaine’s voice faded as he realised that that was exactly the wrong thing to say. Kurt had gone white and his mouth was open in shock.
“So that was your plan. Get Kurt drunk so he will be less of a prude?”
Blaine reached for his hand.
“No Kurt, I didn’t mean it please!”
Kurt shook away Blaine’s hand, opened the door and walked around to the front of the car to sit in the passenger’s seat.
“Take me home Blaine.” He did not look behind him to see Blaine’s crushed expression.
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What a fucking mess.
Kurt thought again as he looked out over the empty auditorium and waited for Blaine to come from his Geography class.
He and Blaine did not talk the entire way home. Blaine dropped Kurt at his house and Kurt left the car without a word. It was only after Kurt was lying in bed surrounded by darkness that he let hot tears fall thickly onto his pillow.
After the tenth message from Blaine consisting of a variation of “I’m so sorry. I love you so much” Kurt had given in and sent a message to Blaine to meet after school.
“Kurt.”
The familiar voice rang out through the auditorium as Kurt turned to take in his boyfriend’s appearance. Kurt had never seen Blaine look so exhausted. His hair looked un-combed and his eyes were bloodshot, making his usually bright brown-green eyes seem dull.
“Kurt I acted like an absolute prick. I should never have forced myself on you like that. You deserve so much better.” Blaine stared at the ground as he spoke, his posture slumped forward.
“Blaine, look at me” Kurt said, gently reaching out to touch Blaine’s shoulder. It was only when Blaine slowly lifted his eyes to his, Kurt spoke.
“I’m sorry too. I reacted badly. I shouldn’t have yelled at you.”
Blaine’s eyes shone with un-shed tears. “Really?” he asked quietly.
“Blaine I’m ready to be intimate with you. I guess I was just freaked out when you came on so strongly. I love you and I just want our first time to be really special”
“I shouldn’t have done that.... I... I love you and I want our first time to be special too.”
“Blaine can you do something for me?” Kurt asked smiling gently.
“Yes of course, anything” Blaine replied quickly.
“Kiss me?”
Blaine didn’t hesitate as he lent forward to place a gentle chaste kiss to the corner of Kurt’s mouth. Kurt sighed in relief and angled his face to Blaine to capture his lips in a proper kiss.
They broke apart to hug each other tightly.
“Blaine?” Kurt asked again softly, his voice muffled by Blaine’s cardigan.
“Yes Kurt?”
“Your parents are away right? Would it be ok if I spent the night at your house tonight?”
Blaine pulled back in shock to look in Kurt’s eyes to search for any signs of hesitation.
“Kurt, are you sure that is what you really want?”
Kurt pulled Blaine back into the embrace. “Yes.”
He heard Blaine whisper a soft “I love you” before he felt his boyfriend bury his face into his neck, melting into Kurt’s hold.
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There was feeling of anticipation in the air as the couple walked up-stairs to Blaine’s room.
“Kurt, could you wait outside for a second?” Blaine asked when they were standing outside his door.
“Um okay sure.” Kurt looked at Blaine suspiciously when he kissed Kurt’s cheek and quickly ducked into his room, closing the door behind him.
Kurt waited nervously in the corridor, but when Blaine finally led him inside he realised it was worth the wait.
The room was filled with candles, providing a soft, warm glow.
Blaine was looking at him with a hopeful expression. “Is it too much? I wanted to be romantic but I wasn’t really sure how and I didn’t want you to get the wrong impression but...”
“Blaine,” Kurt said, cutting him off and leading him by the hand gently to the bed “I love it”.
When they were kneeling on the bed facing each other Kurt spoke again.
“Erm so I have no idea what I’m doing so you will have to be patient with me.”
Blaine slid his hands slowly up Kurt’s arms to rest them gently on Kurt’s face. Kurt felt his hands tremble slightly.
“Why don’t we just kiss and see what happens?”
Kurt let out a shaky laugh and leant forward to kiss Blaine squarely on the mouth, “sounds good to me.”
The next few minutes were a haze of heated kisses and frenzied touching. They somehow ended up lying on their sides next to each other, with Blaine’s t-shirt and vest stripped over his head and Kurt’s shirt unbuttoned completely exposing his surprisingly muscled chest.
“God Kurt” Blaine moaned roughly as Kurt hooked a leg over his hip and ran his hands over his chest.
This is heaven Kurt thought. Touching and kissing his boyfriend on a comfortable bed surrounded by candle light. Unconsciously, they had begun rocking at some point. Blaine was hard against him and it felt so different from the night before. Tonight was about love and passion, Kurt had never been more aroused in his life.
When the rocking motions of their hips began to build in intensity, Blaine pulled away from Kurt and rolled onto his back. His chest rising and falling quickly, his lips were swollen and eyes were glassy.
“Kurt it’s too much I’m not going to last.”
Kurt looked down at Blaine’s tented pants. He ran his hand curiously over the bulge.
“It’s ok Blaine... It’s ok.” Blaine gasped and he pushed up into Kurt’s hand.
Kurt gently turned Blaine back onto his side so they were facing each other again. He unbuckled Blaine’s belt
and then reached for his fly. Blaine pushed his hands away and made quick work undoing his pants and then sliding them down his waist and kicking them off his feet. Blaine reached out for Kurt’s belt.
“Please Kurt... let me...” Kurt nodded and then his pants were being undone with expert fingers and his shirt was being pushed off his shoulders. Kurt removed his pants with shaking hands and lay back next to Blaine, both of them completely naked together for the first time.
Kurt kissed Blaine and they began to explore each other’s body with their hands. Blaine rolled them over so he was on top and reached down between their bodies. Kurt whimpered when Blaine’s hand gently squeezed their erections together. It was the most intense feeling Kurt had experienced in his life and he let his body surrender to sensation.
Kurt did not know who came first. The rush of exhilaration made their thighs tremble and they were panting into each other’s mouth when they finally came down from the high. The endorphins made Kurt’s body tingle as he lay his head on Blaine’s shoulder. He was sweaty and needed a shower but too comfortable exhausted to move.
Kurt felt Blaine laugh lightly in delight as kissed him on the cheek and ran his hand in a soothing pattern over his back.
Kurt smiled and pressed his face against Blaine’s soft skin. He wasn’t sure if what they had done was
everything but if Blaine had more to offer then he couldn’t wait to find out.