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so this topic had too much bulk to write a poem so i just wrote this...
Lawn mowers are kind of like fear.
They ruin the sweetness of silence on a spring afternoon. The sound blocks your mind from pure healthy thoughts.
-But you have to remeber something... The silence and the song of the birds afterwards makes it worth it.
Before last Friday night the sound of the buzing machines came back everyday worrying me and keeping me in fear of unloyalty. I just learned to block it out, get used ot the sound until it just became what was there and meant to be there. But in human emotion this sound does not truly stop without a reason to. The bliss of steady waters can never come without the pain.
I hope this girl finds the truest love one day. I feel bad that one day she will have to live with the fear of another girl decididng she wanted the same mans love. And maybe one day she will cry realizing that you cant change the past. well i know this will ahppen. it happens to all of us.
Many say "i wouldnt forgive him so easy" And i also tell myself that i am too forgiving. But when i think about it this statement cant be accurate. If i didnt feel that my forgiveness was needed or would save us, then i wouldnt have felt so strongly to forgive. And i couldnt see my love weep for one more second. A pain so harshly regretful could be worse then death itself.
...If you saw his eyes yesterday you would surely understand.
So there is this quote by Joni Mitchell that is actually on my profile right now that says
"Well something's lost but something's gained in living everyday"
and the quote in what dreams my come..
"Sometimes when you lose...you win"
I want everyone to remeber that there is so much more to live for then to not live for.
And everytime you lose something you gain something possibly much greater. So take your pain as something beautiful and wear it as a necklace to show off to let people know how fucking good life is gonna be soon. this is all for you...
For my mom and her sweetness after the screams
For my dad who always understands what i need
For nicole and her secret understanding for everything
For sara and her everlasting love and loyalty
For jess and her rollercoaster through life
For Olivia, she is one of the most beautiful, pure people i know
For steve who has always been there for me
For Brian and his beautiful mind,future checker games and ability to understand
For Brian and Julie
For Dyanna..Just because.
For Rob and his poems and love for Nicole
For Tor who always knows what to say
For Dez, Alex, Brittany L, Brittany R, Elcin, Andrew, Regina, Mark and Doug For even just giving me the tiniest amount of hope these past couple of days...even if it was just a simple smile, a look of concern or cheering for me at the fashion show. all of you people find ways to make me smile randomly.
And for Joe, whos love has never shined so bright as it did yesterday.
the brightest love, is the love found in tears.
and go ahead, call me crazy and i just might be for making the decisions i have made, bbut i wont find out until time brings me somewhere new in my life. and oddly enough i trust it.
i love i love.
everything
Lawn mowers are kind of like fear.
They ruin the sweetness of silence on a spring afternoon. The sound blocks your mind from pure healthy thoughts.
-But you have to remeber something... The silence and the song of the birds afterwards makes it worth it.
Before last Friday night the sound of the buzing machines came back everyday worrying me and keeping me in fear of unloyalty. I just learned to block it out, get used ot the sound until it just became what was there and meant to be there. But in human emotion this sound does not truly stop without a reason to. The bliss of steady waters can never come without the pain.
I hope this girl finds the truest love one day. I feel bad that one day she will have to live with the fear of another girl decididng she wanted the same mans love. And maybe one day she will cry realizing that you cant change the past. well i know this will ahppen. it happens to all of us.
Many say "i wouldnt forgive him so easy" And i also tell myself that i am too forgiving. But when i think about it this statement cant be accurate. If i didnt feel that my forgiveness was needed or would save us, then i wouldnt have felt so strongly to forgive. And i couldnt see my love weep for one more second. A pain so harshly regretful could be worse then death itself.
...If you saw his eyes yesterday you would surely understand.
So there is this quote by Joni Mitchell that is actually on my profile right now that says
"Well something's lost but something's gained in living everyday"
and the quote in what dreams my come..
"Sometimes when you lose...you win"
I want everyone to remeber that there is so much more to live for then to not live for.
And everytime you lose something you gain something possibly much greater. So take your pain as something beautiful and wear it as a necklace to show off to let people know how fucking good life is gonna be soon. this is all for you...
For my mom and her sweetness after the screams
For my dad who always understands what i need
For nicole and her secret understanding for everything
For sara and her everlasting love and loyalty
For jess and her rollercoaster through life
For Olivia, she is one of the most beautiful, pure people i know
For steve who has always been there for me
For Brian and his beautiful mind,future checker games and ability to understand
For Brian and Julie
For Dyanna..Just because.
For Rob and his poems and love for Nicole
For Tor who always knows what to say
For Dez, Alex, Brittany L, Brittany R, Elcin, Andrew, Regina, Mark and Doug For even just giving me the tiniest amount of hope these past couple of days...even if it was just a simple smile, a look of concern or cheering for me at the fashion show. all of you people find ways to make me smile randomly.
And for Joe, whos love has never shined so bright as it did yesterday.
the brightest love, is the love found in tears.
and go ahead, call me crazy and i just might be for making the decisions i have made, bbut i wont find out until time brings me somewhere new in my life. and oddly enough i trust it.
i love i love.
everything