i cant remember all the times i tried to tell myself to hold on to these moments as they pass...

[understorygrey]

"my life in all its commotion
is somehow calmed when you're in tact."

if you would have asked me about two months ago if this would ever happen in the entirety of my life... i would have said ABSOLUTELY NOT. but guess what. it happened and i regret it like i knew i would. i saw it coming, so i cant blame anyone but myself.

here's a list of what i need:

-THAT MOTHER FUCKING PLANNER.
-a shower. which will take place as soon as i get off....the computer
-film for my camera
-a GIRL friend.
-money. MONEY MONEY MONEY. so i can support myself when....
-clothes.
-sleep. which will take place as soon as i get out of the shower
-a bird. i want a bird.
-my car cleaned.
-to start this photography project
-last summer. i need it back.

ask me about what happened downtown. just ask me. hahahaHAAH