umm.

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um last night- um that party i was at, i remember talking to a blonde chick on the porch stairs thing whatever- and then i remember leaving. parently i told matt, all about how i slept with his gf, but i only slept with her- i was too drunk t o screw- that night and consecutive nights were a blur - but me and k have aggreeed that there was no sex possible- i mean the first night i was runnig around her room in my boxers making an ass of myself before i passed out and the second night over the summmer i was headed for it drunk as a skunk and she was so pissed she had me slow dancing with her in the dining room, and she passed out on the way to the bed. and i took the highroad and passed out next to her.

I do need a fight. just one more physical failure. the only way i can rationalize what i apparently said is that in saying it I was looking for trouble. but i don"t remember a damn thing- except leaving. if matt picked a fight i'd think it'd be good. cause i wouldnt care and hopefully after he'd got his he would be able to stand my standing still.

but it's stupid. it's not real-it's kristi for crissakes, i'm pissed if someones pissed about her, no one in their right minds can ever get mad at that girl- even if she liesand steals and cheats- cause that's what she is- its what she stands for. YOU fucked up, not me, ol buddy. come find me i'll show you what a fight is.