Ok, I ordered my cousin a plane ticket. I changed my aunts flight schedule so they leave on the same plan.
My aunts and uncles are coming in.
I have nothing to do at the moment. So, I guess I'm gonna go to work today???
They have me on the schedule all next week, so that's going to suck really bad. No one can replace those shifts... so I'm going to try and work what I can. Yet, I need off for my family and off for my friends, I include friends because that is who will make me feel better.
I have a big test on Tuesday, I don't know if the funeral will be Monday or Tuesday, so I talked to my teacher. I can make it up during dead week if need be. Who knows. It really depends if I can study over the weekend.
I'm gonna let my cousin stay in my room... I think. She's the only one who has really stayed in it before, so I trust her highly. It will be good to see dear Anna.
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So I'm definitely a strong person, I'm composed. Here and there I have to go behind closed doors and have a moment; BUT, overall, I think I can go to work. I'll be alone in accounting. As long as no one bothers me, I'll be fine.
I'll be fine.
My family handles it like the true Irish. A shot for you old man. At least your extensive collection of rare and expensive liquor is helping your family grieve. It's time to play Danny Boy and any other fighting Irish songs.
It's to your team, Pittsburgh, and it's to your heritage... but mostly to you Gran Gran, we toast to you.
May ones exit in this world be as joyous as ones entrance, after all - why not celebrate such a wonderful life???
But, for those who read this - I'll be fine. I'm strong, I'm independent and I'm the perfect model of composure I think. I'm known for my optimism, so I'm trying to hold strong to that. I totally understand and take the pessimistic things very well; heh, for knowing the extremes - you think I would be bipolar or something, maybe have a mood swing or two. I'm just weird.
If I ever leave this world alive
FLOGGING MOLLY - IF I EVER LEAVE THIS WORLD ALIVE...
I'll thank for all the things you did in my life
If I ever leave this world alive
I'll come back down and sit beside your
feet tonight
Wherever I am you'll always be
More than just a memory
If I ever leave this world alive
If I ever leave this world alive
I'll take on all the sadness
That I left behind
If I ever leave this world alive
The madness that you feel will soon subside
So in a word don't shed a tear
I'll be here when it all gets weird
If I ever leave this world alive
So when in doubt just call my name
Just before you go insane
If I ever leave this world
Hey I may never leave this world
But if I ever leave this world alive
She says I'm okay; I'm alright,
Though you have gone from my life
You said that it would,
Now everything should be all right
She says I'm okay; I'm alright,
Though you have gone from my life
You said that it would,
Now everything should be all right
Yeah should be alright