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[underpunches]

i thought i was invincible and i thought i could do anything and get away with it; i am addicted to cigarettes. i just experienced a feeling of relentless sorrow and low self esteem and frustration because the cigarette i was rolling was falling apart and all i was thinking was "i just want to fucking smoke this." it's nothing severe, but i'm going to stop smoking while i can.

i'm re-testing for my license today and i'm confident that i will pass this time.
i love jen. she is the greatest thing that has ever happened to me.
happy valentine's day.