I really don't know clouds at all.
I started writing this last night and became distracted enough to
forget about it entirely - until right now.
"Both Sides, Now" has been haunting me for at least a week. Does
anyone own a recording of this song?
I ran all around town this morning and thought about all the
memories that are attached to the different places along my course.
I had no music today, so I was able to think about these things when
I wasn't attempting to focus on my pace and breathing.
I ran by a campus that was still and silent, covered in four inches of
snow only a month ago.
I ran by the ornate Catholic church that I attended only one service at
with a former roommate. I remembered remaining detached even after
my genuine attempt to feel close to God.
I ran by that posh new hotel that my friend from Naxos spins at once
in a while.
I ran by the Nissan dealership by the highway with the sign displaying
a disfigured time and temperature. For no reason at all, I never trusted
the time. I accepted the temperature.
I ran by that spot on 12th where I paused and kissed someone
after they quietly murmured that I was beautiful on a drunk and
brisk walk to my apartment.
I ran up and down Music Row. I thought about how overwhelmed
I felt when I first drove into town with only the possessions that I had
fit into my car.
I ran past the beloved Elmwood house and reminisced about the time I
watched a female sillouette gracefully dancing on the porch across
the street while Brie and Adam shared stories and songs next to me.
I ran by that dry cleaner with the large tinted windows that I always studied
my reflection in. I realized today that they might not be in business, but didn't
linger long enough to know for sure.
I listened to a local folk radio show with my front windows halfway down as I
measured the distance that I ran.
I guess that I've looked at a lot of things from both sides, as well.
"Tears and fears and feeling proud
To say I love you right out loud
Dreams and schemes and circus crowds
I've looked at life that way."
When I first wrote this, I had the following set of lyrics listed above:
"But now its just another show
You leave 'em laughing when you go
And if you care, dont let them know
Dont give yourself away."
Even though I love these lines, I think I subconsciously removed them
because I'm trying to move away from these types of sentiments.