ugh......frustrated!!!!!!!!
i am so fucking frustrated right now!!! johnny just told me that him and baker are going to the dunes on friday because im hanging out with my girlfriends!! they're bringing a blanket, camera, roscoe (his sisters dog) and maybe lorraine and rob are gonnna go. well excuse me for making plans with my girlfriends for like the first time in months....i miss them!!! why does it seem like any time i wanna hang out with my girlfriends, im the one that has to pay for it in the end cuz he hangs out with like baker or somebody and i just end up getting jealous???? shouldnt boyfriends not hang out with other girls....isnt that not right?!?! and shouldnt girls know well enough that you dont go to the dunes and hang out with somebody else's boyfriend by yourself....especially when you act like their friend in school?!?! i guess im the one looking like a stupid jealous bitch right now and like a control freak over my boyfriend, but right now im so frustrated and stressed that i dont even give a shit. i love johnny sooo much and maybe thats why i get so jealous, i dunno. or maybe its just cuz i want my b/f all to myself....but gee, taht doesnt seem wrong, does it?!?! i just feel like sometimes im not good enough for him, or anybody else for that matter. i just wanna be confident in myself that no matter what, i know im good enough (not to sound cocky, but so that i can just be confident) until then though, i guess ill just have to be a stupid jealous bitchy girlfriend who loves her boyfriend and just wants him all to herself.....
on another note....i realized yesterday and today, that i need to do something with my life. i dont make enough money right now and i just need to start making more money. i wont get anywhere in life with no money. my dreams and ambitions are waaaay to big for little old boone grove. i wanna get away and make a living on my own and be set for life and never have to work at hallmark or bakers square or anywhere else like that again!!!!! i hate part time jobs where you make minimum wage, and thats supposed to cover everything you need for the next two weeks....well i got news for fucking hallmark....it doesnt!!!! it pays for jack shit, and they should fucking pay me more!!!!! ugh, stupid ass job!!!
alright ive bitched enough, i need to go!!!! goodbye
on another note....i realized yesterday and today, that i need to do something with my life. i dont make enough money right now and i just need to start making more money. i wont get anywhere in life with no money. my dreams and ambitions are waaaay to big for little old boone grove. i wanna get away and make a living on my own and be set for life and never have to work at hallmark or bakers square or anywhere else like that again!!!!! i hate part time jobs where you make minimum wage, and thats supposed to cover everything you need for the next two weeks....well i got news for fucking hallmark....it doesnt!!!! it pays for jack shit, and they should fucking pay me more!!!!! ugh, stupid ass job!!!
alright ive bitched enough, i need to go!!!! goodbye