Goodbye My Lover...
I don't understand why sometimes I'm so ok with him not having feelings for me anymore but sometimes it just hits me so hard i can't stand. sometimes i'm ok with just being friends (if you can even call it that) but sometimes i just replay over and over and over all the good, sweet things he did for me and i just want to crawl into a hole and cry. right now i just want him to hold me. i don't want to have sex with him or kiss him or anything like that...i just want him to hold me again. i just want him to pull me close to him. i feel like he doesn't care at all. he probably doesn't. why can't i just turn these feelings off? make them go away...he did. while he was in florida at least i had some hope that he would come home and have missed me but when i hung out with him the other day it was apparrent that there are no feelings left at all. i just don't get it. what's wrong with me? am i unlovable? i just wish i could forget...
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Goodbye My Lover-James Blunt
Did I disappoint you or let you down?
Should I be feeling guilty or let the judges frown?
'Cause I saw the end before we'd begun,
Yes I saw you were blinded and I knew I had won.
So I took what's mine by eternal right.
Took your soul out into the night.
It may be over but it won't stop there,
I am here for you if you'd only care.
You touched my heart you touched my soul.
You changed my life and all my goals.
And love is blind and that I knew when,
My heart was blinded by you.
I've kissed your lips and held your head.
Shared your dreams and shared your bed.
I know you well, I know your smell.
I've been addicted to you.
Goodbye my lover.
Goodbye my friend.
You have been the one.
You have been the one for me.
I am a dreamer but when I wake,
You can't break my spirit - it's my dreams you take.
And as you move on, remember me,
Remember us and all we used to be
I've seen you cry, I've seen you smile.
I've watched you sleeping for a while.
I'd be the father of your child.
I'd spend a lifetime with you.
I know your fears and you know mine.
We've had our doubts but now we're fine,
And I love you, I swear that's true.
I cannot live without you.
Goodbye my lover.
Goodbye my friend.
You have been the one.
You have been the one for me.
And I still hold your hand in mine.
In mine when I'm asleep.
And I will bare my soul in time,
When I'm kneeling at your feet.
Goodbye my lover.
Goodbye my friend.
You have been the one.
You have been the one for me.
I'm so hollow, baby, I'm so hollow.
I'm so, I'm so, I'm so hollow.