33. (?) Who even knows/cares anymore.
I keep making the same mistakes over and over and over again.
When will I ever learn?
I wish I was able to miss the people I am supposed to be missing. I'm sick to death of being numb. I am unable to be affected by broken relationships and vanishing faces. You are supposed to gain friendships, and I drop them like loose change. I'm tired of attempting to rekindle what little there is left, and I'm even more tired of pointing fingers. However, I'm exhausted from being stubborn, and I'm worn out from being angry. It takes too much energy and effort to be mean. I've got a drawer full of hurtful words but what has that got to do with my self-esteem? My harsh criticism is just as detrimental to me as it is to everyone else. I need to stop being so hard on people.
I have got to get my shit together. Asap.
When will I ever learn?
I wish I was able to miss the people I am supposed to be missing. I'm sick to death of being numb. I am unable to be affected by broken relationships and vanishing faces. You are supposed to gain friendships, and I drop them like loose change. I'm tired of attempting to rekindle what little there is left, and I'm even more tired of pointing fingers. However, I'm exhausted from being stubborn, and I'm worn out from being angry. It takes too much energy and effort to be mean. I've got a drawer full of hurtful words but what has that got to do with my self-esteem? My harsh criticism is just as detrimental to me as it is to everyone else. I need to stop being so hard on people.
I have got to get my shit together. Asap.