"when i think of it my fingers turn to fists"

[undermindthis]

well baby,
the shallow water keeps me from drowing.
and deeply,
i do regret making the choice to change.
but love,
my phsyche's only envy
is those
who know no better than to keep a lung above water;
because i do
and i chose to pretend to be naive.

"hunger hurts,
and I want him so bad,
oh it kills
'Cause I know I'm a mess he don't wanna clean up
I got to fold 'cause these hands are too shaky to hold
hunger hurts,
but starving works,
when it costs too much to love"