and how does that work out for you in your holy quest to be above reproach?
Tonight was great. I went to my first "jello party," and got to hang out with some cool friends and meet some new people. After about three hours of extreme jello craziness, I decided that I wanted to head back to my dorm and go to sleep. I climbed into my car looking forward to winding down, but suddenly I became very uncomfortable just being by myself. As I entered a state of introspection I was forced to face the fact that I have not been living certain parts of my life in the way I want to live them. It made me mad at myself for how far I have fallen from my self-set standards of living over the last few months. After driving a few blocks fog began to appear thicker and thicker, enveloping my car. I gladly accepted the surreal state that it put me in. It allowed me to escape facing myself, at least for the present. For now I will retreat to my bed and find comfort in sleep.