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you don't understand how i work. i swear i am mentally deranged. some poeple say, hey think of all the good things in ur life. think about how good it's gonna get. but i can't see things that way. and let me say, i hate disappointment. i keep away from a lot of things so i don't suffer any disappointment. i miss out. but that's how i am. so when i choose something, one thing, and it's constantly in my mind because it's a really good thing, that's what keeps me going. that's all that keeps me going. and as soon as that is over, i choose another one. but when it comes down to that one thing, that one solitary web that holds ur head out of the water, and then that web breaks before u have time to spin another one, the disappointment is killer. killer. what's left?