home on a friday night...
well life was going quite great until my parents found out that i lied to them about my homework. i didnt do it but i told them that i did. and they found. and now im am endlessly being judged by my parents and my sister. just because i told them i handed in something that was extra credit. yes everyone it doesnt even mark down my grade. i even improved my geometry grade and i have been getting A's on all of my quizzes. i was supposed to go to KYC tonight. but i cant. im actually quite surprised at myself, i thought that i would be really really dissapointed. but im not. i actually dont care at all. and i feel completely content at staying home. i am a tad bit bummed because it happens to be a friday night. plus me liking jon. i say down and thought about it for a while. he doesnt give a flying fuck about me. so why should i want that. if i died tommorrow he would even turn his head. i am finally realizing how pointless it all is. in reality i think that i never really liked him like that i was just in love with the idea of having someone like him close to me. in my mind its all done with for now. damn it.. listen to me im making it sound like we were going out or something. but not even that happened. i simply fell in love with someone who could never possibly love me back. or maybe i fell in lust, could he have just been a piece of ass to me? i still wonder. anyways.......jess and everyone are going to CT to see piss poor exscuse play. i really want to see them play. but i think im going to go with yasmin in like 2 weeks. so that should be fun. i think by then school will be out and thing wont be as morose as they seem now. i still have finals and all, but i doubt that they are going to be that stressful. my sister has to deal with 20 days of all finals. and its really hard stuff. i pitty that poor soul. thats what you get for deciding to be an overacheiver.