rant rant rant
oh my livejournal i have neglected u. actually whatever i really don't care about lj anymore. no one even updates and all these little online things will just fade into oblivion. hahahhahahhha something is wrong with me lately
so today was my senior game (soccer). and i played for like, at most, 5 minutes. i mean i started, which one varsity experience i have never had before, but honestly....whatever. i mean i don't even kno why im writting in this stupid little thing. the point is that soccer last year was better...actually no, actually i can't make up my mind. last year i dreaded every minute of my life that led up to practice. this year, i still don't want to go to practice but i don't hate it/loathe it as much. last year i cried at practice because senisi was such an ass. but i played in all the games that weren't huge or that close. this year i have played in 2 games the whole regular season. probably a grand total of 20 minutes. i mean it wasn't worth it. none of it was worth it. i made some friends, yeah it looks good for college, but if u aren't really good at a sport, it's sooo not worth it. like it's not worth me feeling like shit about myself and running around like an idiot every day for two hours of my life if im not h aving or playing. and im not having fun. and im not playing. but thank god it's almost over. thank god. this is actually the first time i've ranted about soccer this year (an approvement from last year where i complained every five seconds, remember that one guys?) soccer has given me so much grief and just such a freaking heartache that i would say to any stupid little incoming freshman, JOIN XC, unless ur a soccer superstar. im not saying sports are all bad. i love tennis season so much. i love it love it love. it is my life in the spring. i wish it was all year that's how much fun it is. maybe cuz im just beast at it. (yeah im modest) maybe cuz tennis guys from other schools are so cute with their little preppy shirts and tennis raquets. or maybe it's just cuz i actually play. how about that one? oh and i actually like most of the ppl on the team as well
so today was my senior game (soccer). and i played for like, at most, 5 minutes. i mean i started, which one varsity experience i have never had before, but honestly....whatever. i mean i don't even kno why im writting in this stupid little thing. the point is that soccer last year was better...actually no, actually i can't make up my mind. last year i dreaded every minute of my life that led up to practice. this year, i still don't want to go to practice but i don't hate it/loathe it as much. last year i cried at practice because senisi was such an ass. but i played in all the games that weren't huge or that close. this year i have played in 2 games the whole regular season. probably a grand total of 20 minutes. i mean it wasn't worth it. none of it was worth it. i made some friends, yeah it looks good for college, but if u aren't really good at a sport, it's sooo not worth it. like it's not worth me feeling like shit about myself and running around like an idiot every day for two hours of my life if im not h aving or playing. and im not having fun. and im not playing. but thank god it's almost over. thank god. this is actually the first time i've ranted about soccer this year (an approvement from last year where i complained every five seconds, remember that one guys?) soccer has given me so much grief and just such a freaking heartache that i would say to any stupid little incoming freshman, JOIN XC, unless ur a soccer superstar. im not saying sports are all bad. i love tennis season so much. i love it love it love. it is my life in the spring. i wish it was all year that's how much fun it is. maybe cuz im just beast at it. (yeah im modest) maybe cuz tennis guys from other schools are so cute with their little preppy shirts and tennis raquets. or maybe it's just cuz i actually play. how about that one? oh and i actually like most of the ppl on the team as well