Too much for me.
When I saw my reflection in those blue and green eyes I couldn't help but think how much of a fool I actually am. I don't claim to understand love or passion but I can experience it just the same. I don't know what happened to my soul tonight but I felt it relax and pain at the same time. How can I even fathom how long it has been. Many nights proud I sat in this very chair trying to forget. I see now how welcoming a familiar smile is.
Oh how idiotic I was to think that I could stray from it. I couldn't explain the unbearable truth that has come over me. I drink from a poisonous well but attempt to show affection to someone I could never dream of hurting. I am truly sorry for the way I am. I feel like a child toying with peoples emotions. But no, I must choose.
Unconditional or a new adventure. My heart sways between the waves of regret and pity. Pity on myself. What a horrid situation I have put myself in. My heart with one, my friendship with another. I hate to break either. I hate the biochemistry within.
I acted on impulse and felt obligated to stride forward. I did so at the cost of a sweet heart. I do not wish to make her seem unimportant or that I only used. What I feel is still strong. But I cannot turn away from someone who cares so deeply for me, even if the wine is poisoned.
I do not know why I type so subtlety. I guess I fear that if I use frank words I will feel like I am just an asshole with a keyboard.
Can you at least say you're still my friends?
Oh how idiotic I was to think that I could stray from it. I couldn't explain the unbearable truth that has come over me. I drink from a poisonous well but attempt to show affection to someone I could never dream of hurting. I am truly sorry for the way I am. I feel like a child toying with peoples emotions. But no, I must choose.
Unconditional or a new adventure. My heart sways between the waves of regret and pity. Pity on myself. What a horrid situation I have put myself in. My heart with one, my friendship with another. I hate to break either. I hate the biochemistry within.
I acted on impulse and felt obligated to stride forward. I did so at the cost of a sweet heart. I do not wish to make her seem unimportant or that I only used. What I feel is still strong. But I cannot turn away from someone who cares so deeply for me, even if the wine is poisoned.
I do not know why I type so subtlety. I guess I fear that if I use frank words I will feel like I am just an asshole with a keyboard.
Can you at least say you're still my friends?