need to vent

[underafullmoon]

just let me say sorry
let me explain
all of my thoughts
i am going insane

let me be weak
and let me have fear
understand why
my eyes fill with tears

just give me a minute
to feel this way
dont tell me i am wrong
just think of what i need to be ok

come and surprise me
show up at my door
hold me all night
and dont expect more

why does our pride
have to get in the way
when you could just know
that the world is heavy today

that i dont want to worry
and i dont mean to cry
but all my emotions get
bottled inside

maybe just think about
how it is that i feel
and think where it comes from
and why it is real

listen and pray with me
dont shut me down
and please dont forget me
when i am not around

i love you and dont
mean to bring you this weight
i am sure i will get better
nothings at stake