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I’m leaving btms. A fresh start. It’s the brand new me. If you don’t like, sorry.
It’s not my decision to get rezoned to ITS. I don’t even see it as rezoning. I see it as a place to make more friends, where teachers don’t know me to judge me, where kids don’t know me to judge me, a place, to start over BRAND NEW. That’s what I see it as.
I know, I’m going to lose as least one of my friends. And that’s what my topic for today is. Friends.
Friends are my life. I spend weekends with them, hang out with them, you know…friends stuff. They’re really important to me.
Its just that, those are the one I REALLY don’t want to lose. Angela, Kristine, Haley, Jenai, Katie, Ashley, Julia, Lizzy, ugh just people.
It’s so hard to say this.
But I already think I’m losing one of them. And I really need to fix that.
I’m losing the only one that understood me. I could tell her ANYTHING. Things going on in my life, stuff about my parents, my school stuff, just everything. She was the only one I had. I felt like if the world died and one person would be standing there with me, it’d be her. I felt like she was the only one that would even think of understanding me. She showed me who I was , not even knowing she was doing it. She brought out the best of me. I trusted her. And I still do.
She was my other half. Everyone said we were BEST friends, them even having a problem with us being friends. And I thought they were jealous. They were jealous of our good friendship.
Until I found out that my best friend was jealous of me.
She told me that I was so pretty, and that guys thought I was so pretty. And I never even considered her being jealous of me.
And I felt bad. Because I don’t think I’m that pretty.
I think she’s gorgeous. And I told her, “If you say so many guys think I’m pretty, show me, because they aren’t telling me. Or they aren’t even asking me out.”
I just wish I could turn back time and change everything.
But that’s the way life goes.
“I swear I’d burn the city down , to show you the light.”
And it’s just so hard to know, I’m losing the only one I had in this world. My best friend.
Angela, I’m so sorry.
“I feel like, I’ve lost everything, whered you go? I’m remembering what it’s like, to have you here with me. I thought you should know, you’re not making this easy.”