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I should really be asleep right now. I'm actually very tired. I was just here and thought maybe I should update. It is officially November, which has always been among my favorite months-- mostly for Thanksgiving and my birthday. I guess that is selfish. I would hate if my birthday was in February, because that is my least favorite month. Even though it is kind of nice here in Florida, I still associate it with the dragging-on of New England winter, when it is still cold but everything is melting, slushy, and dirty. I always dreaded the muddy, frigid water seeping into my shoes and rimming the bottom of my pants, a scummy reminder of the winter that has not quite gone. February, yuck. Thank FLS they made it the shortest month.
The one thing I hate about seeing my friends or family or Michael, who's a combination of the two, is the emptiness when I get back here. Just me and my dogs. I don't mean to be ungrateful to my grandparents, but it's lonely. I am thinking I might sign up for six classes at UCF this semester. I can always drop one if it's too much, and I just want to get it over and done with as quickly as possible. That's probably a bad way to look at my education, should be enjoying college and all that, but I just want to get out of the South so bad. I know that, in hereditary terms, I am just as much a Southerner as a Northerner and should probably take pride in both sides of my heritage... I just don't. I am proud of the family I am descended from, but not of their Southerness. Nah, I'm a Yankee.
Okay, I am off. I have work at 9am. Thank fuck for the extra hour.
The one thing I hate about seeing my friends or family or Michael, who's a combination of the two, is the emptiness when I get back here. Just me and my dogs. I don't mean to be ungrateful to my grandparents, but it's lonely. I am thinking I might sign up for six classes at UCF this semester. I can always drop one if it's too much, and I just want to get it over and done with as quickly as possible. That's probably a bad way to look at my education, should be enjoying college and all that, but I just want to get out of the South so bad. I know that, in hereditary terms, I am just as much a Southerner as a Northerner and should probably take pride in both sides of my heritage... I just don't. I am proud of the family I am descended from, but not of their Southerness. Nah, I'm a Yankee.
Okay, I am off. I have work at 9am. Thank fuck for the extra hour.