reflect while you crash
My body has relied on my bong for sleep for the past two nights. Everyone who went to subic is supposedly feeling just as shitty as i am, but that doesn't make me feel any better (but I'd do it all again in a heartbeat.. or next weekend :) ). Neither does the fact that I have school, and that I'm not getting things done. I dont want to whine, but it's kind of annoying to not understand what the hell is going on with my body and my education. MUST CLEAR HEAD.
But bitching aside, it's been one hell of a week. For the past couple of weeks, the last one especially, I feel like I've entered a tunnel... a tunnel of different experiences, revelations, beliefs and thoughts.. I can feel myself changing, slowly releasing old biases, acquiring new forms of prejudice, just changing. I suppose it's no different from growing up, but this time I'm completely aware of the changes and even have some sort of control over it.. now I can choose what to believe in, in whatever method of selection I want. It's complicated to illustrate, since I'm talking about feelings here.. but when everything settles down I'll try to decipher the aftermath of these fucking reflections. :)
But bitching aside, it's been one hell of a week. For the past couple of weeks, the last one especially, I feel like I've entered a tunnel... a tunnel of different experiences, revelations, beliefs and thoughts.. I can feel myself changing, slowly releasing old biases, acquiring new forms of prejudice, just changing. I suppose it's no different from growing up, but this time I'm completely aware of the changes and even have some sort of control over it.. now I can choose what to believe in, in whatever method of selection I want. It's complicated to illustrate, since I'm talking about feelings here.. but when everything settles down I'll try to decipher the aftermath of these fucking reflections. :)