Dear therapist...
Today, I missed two calls from an old roommate. Who sexually assaulted me last december. I'm so not ready to forgive him yet. I don't want any part of him back in my life. I've gotten over it, maybe I even have forgiven him to myself. But I absolutely don't want to talk to him. Don't want him near me, don't want anything to do with him. That's not wrong. Protecting myself and living in peace isn't wrong. And not adding this to my emotional bank is not wrong either. I'm worried sick about my dad, and to top it off he wants to say sorry and talk again. No, I don't want to think about it! Let me forget you and let me remember all the good times with my dad. That's what a want, go away!