excited/emo
lol, thanks to my good friend, dennis and the term "emo moments" I've had a lot of those this week. I think I finally pin pointed it. My best friend of two years is moving. Gosh I love that girl. This whole week I've been bringing up conversations of "back then" and "I was" and "we were". I think I'm really really going to miss that kid. I have never been attached to anyone quite like her, not in a lesbian way, but in a....I donno, I've heard that your soul mate is not always the opposite gender, and to tell you the truth, she's the closest to a soulmate I think I"ll ever get. THe last two years, well....she's been there for me, in a way not too many people have. Now I have wonderful friends, but, well, there's something that feels like home around her. she was there when my mom died, she knows all my anxieties about every little detail in life, which a lot of my friends do now, but she was the only one to sit me down and say that I wasn't always like this, I think I've been trying to create my own mental illness, and say that I'm "just like this, always have been" when I haven't, and she kinda kicked reality back in there for me. she said "You know, you always used to amaze me, you were the only person I ever knew that things turned out for them just like they said they would even though you didn't stress over it, everything always turned out just like you planned." and that's so true, I really didn't use to stress, now things still kinda turn out, but I stress a whole lot more. I need to cut it out. she's so swell, I really don't know what next semester is going to be like without her.
gosh, this semester, w0w, been through so much, I moved into my own place **Thank GOd**! I enjoy it so much! I'm out of well, the James mess. I've fallen in love with Anthropology and have something else to study and learn about, I stage managed the crucible and fell back in love with theatre, my dad and I have never ever EVER been closer my brother and I are getting there, and really, it's been a pretty ok semester, and I guess when I read these I'll want to be realistic and say that yeah, some of it did suck pretty bad, the nikita thing for one, some people just amaze me at how much crap they will put themselves and the ones they love through, and yeah, james and his abusive side coming out. but really, it's alright! I've brought up my grades (depending on if Richard got the final paper or not) and could not be more excited for next semester! actually, forget next semester! I can't wait for next week! On wensday I'm finally getting on that plane for Ecquador! I'll be turning 21 soon after that and 2007 is looking so wonderfully hopeful! oh, on the 21 note thing, lol, I do not support alcholism by any means, but, well, as hypocritical as this may sound...don't judge me because I definately don't judge anybody who does this, but sometime after i get back from the amazon, I'm going to host the big 21st birthday bash and yes, believe it or not, stephanie is going to get drunk, if anyone who still reads this wants to come, well, I'll have more details later. I decided, why not, it's our culture, and I'm one person to try everything at least once in life, I've done worse than drink so why not go for it? plus I really don't know what I'll be like drunk, could be interesting! then after a big hang over I'll get the semester underway! I'm going to take a feildwork class in archeology! so that in the summer I can get an internship at the environmental science group in Florida, CAN"T WAIT! I'll also be taking playwritting and directing which we'll do the 24 hour ten minute play festival, which will be awesome! and if I manage not to get sick in the amazon, richard said I have a good chance of passing his cultural anthorpology class! I'm going to be so much more involved with S.A.V.E. and a bigger part of unicef! we have our scholarship essay contest going on next semester which will be awesome! it's just....I can't wait! cannot possibly wait! life is happening and it's so good to be living it! OH! OH! and my girl, NAOMI! is MOVING DOWN HERE! hehe, next fall or winter we're moving up to carrlton and I"m transfering to west GA! can't wait! a freash start! w00t!
so as this was waayyyy too long, and I apologize cause I forgot how to do the lj cut, so I'm going to go ahead and get outta here!
God bless everyone reading this!
gosh, this semester, w0w, been through so much, I moved into my own place **Thank GOd**! I enjoy it so much! I'm out of well, the James mess. I've fallen in love with Anthropology and have something else to study and learn about, I stage managed the crucible and fell back in love with theatre, my dad and I have never ever EVER been closer my brother and I are getting there, and really, it's been a pretty ok semester, and I guess when I read these I'll want to be realistic and say that yeah, some of it did suck pretty bad, the nikita thing for one, some people just amaze me at how much crap they will put themselves and the ones they love through, and yeah, james and his abusive side coming out. but really, it's alright! I've brought up my grades (depending on if Richard got the final paper or not) and could not be more excited for next semester! actually, forget next semester! I can't wait for next week! On wensday I'm finally getting on that plane for Ecquador! I'll be turning 21 soon after that and 2007 is looking so wonderfully hopeful! oh, on the 21 note thing, lol, I do not support alcholism by any means, but, well, as hypocritical as this may sound...don't judge me because I definately don't judge anybody who does this, but sometime after i get back from the amazon, I'm going to host the big 21st birthday bash and yes, believe it or not, stephanie is going to get drunk, if anyone who still reads this wants to come, well, I'll have more details later. I decided, why not, it's our culture, and I'm one person to try everything at least once in life, I've done worse than drink so why not go for it? plus I really don't know what I'll be like drunk, could be interesting! then after a big hang over I'll get the semester underway! I'm going to take a feildwork class in archeology! so that in the summer I can get an internship at the environmental science group in Florida, CAN"T WAIT! I'll also be taking playwritting and directing which we'll do the 24 hour ten minute play festival, which will be awesome! and if I manage not to get sick in the amazon, richard said I have a good chance of passing his cultural anthorpology class! I'm going to be so much more involved with S.A.V.E. and a bigger part of unicef! we have our scholarship essay contest going on next semester which will be awesome! it's just....I can't wait! cannot possibly wait! life is happening and it's so good to be living it! OH! OH! and my girl, NAOMI! is MOVING DOWN HERE! hehe, next fall or winter we're moving up to carrlton and I"m transfering to west GA! can't wait! a freash start! w00t!
so as this was waayyyy too long, and I apologize cause I forgot how to do the lj cut, so I'm going to go ahead and get outta here!
God bless everyone reading this!