Nov 19, 2006 16:54
The distance between reality and the shining horizon of hope seems to be forgotten.
The distance between my reality and yours seems to be a surface.
The distance that I feel within myself and everyone I once knew feels more than real. I feel the distance between us is growing. I feel the distance within myself is growing. I feel distant and alone in the grand scheme of things.
I feel distant, the shy feeling of hope and the shy feeling of confidence in relationships seems to slowly fade at the time when you need it most. It's not as if it's not there but it's shadowed b the fact that I don't have a smile worth in hell to have comfort in the world, in our relationships, in my relationships with other people.
At the surface it may seem unchanged to you but eventually getting to see the change and the great distance I will see the change in all of you, in all of us.
The distance is great.
The heart is big.
The complete and utter smile in difference is unique, is forgiving, is happiness in it's own way.