just ...another...day.
Maybe Liz is right. Maybe I should just leave things where they are and not talk about them to him. Who knows now? All I know is that I'm hella vacant right now.
Daniel came into Dallas by bus. From there, clubbing at Purgatory with compliments of Daryl for getting us in. I don't want to date Daryl. Thanks, it's flattering, but no. I'm not attracted to him in the least bit.
After that, we showed Daniel Grant's dorm hall and stayed up talking with him for a while.
The next morning I showed Daniel around school and talked to him for a while. Fed him while at it in our Ratskeller. Then we took him shopping with us and bought Chris' bday gift (tongue rings).
Later on that night we drove to UTD and decorated for his bday suprise party and then Ed showed up. Naturally I jumped on him when I saw him...which is really hard to do while running down three flights of stairs in high heels wearing a mini-jean skirt and a really pretty tight black spagetthi top (which he complimented me on...i think). Not soon after Chris, Alonso, Joel and Nikki Davis show up and then we have a small party. Few other people showed...but...hell I don't remember their names. Ed and Daniel now claim Chris to be "Extreme" Man from Harold and Kumar cause well....he is pretty wild and extreme.
We left the apartment and headed back towards UD. Yeah...there was a girl bitter circle talk and then there was me waiting till 2:30 to go talk to my boys. We chatted just like the old times. It was good. I miss that a lot too.
Well Saturday we woke up, I took Daniel and Ed to the Rat to get some grub, then we went to the Dallas Zoo (and that crazy kick ass McDonalds!). The Zoo was fun. I hadn't been since 8th grade so it had been a while. We then came back to campus, chilled, talked (well...kinda), Ed finally (I guess) paid his dues that he promised me (though it was cut short by people's interuptions), and then we watched "Snakes on a Plane" which was downloaded by April's bf Gabe.
I was very....quiet and pensive yesterday. Didn't mean to shut down again, it's just that...a lot of things have been going through my mind that it kinda hurts. And most of today.
Ed and Daniel went to bed around 5:40 this morning and well...same on my part. Woke up, and said our goodbyes. Hopefully Liz and I will go to San Antonio soon. But as for now, I'm really sad that I won't have something like them visiting to look forward to for a while. I mean, at least my parents are visiting next weekend but still...I'd wish Daniel and Ed would come back soon or I be able to visit them.
And what's the worst part about all this weekend you ask? The fact that I have nothing to say that hasn't already been said to someone who is very important to me. Why is this barrier coming up now? Now that we are in freaking college...things just seem...to stay where they left off from summer. It's so hard to move on in life when you know you have something you have deeper connections to then anything else in this world. Maybe I'm just being immature but I'm good at playing the waiting game. Sure it isn't healthy and most likely a waste of time..but you never know.
"Never say Never"
right?
oh hell, who am I kidding? I'm just going to end up being a single living with Trey's aunt the rest of my pathetic life. That or becoming a Nun and scolding people for waiting for nothing. People shouldn't have to wait....but...it happens all the damn time.
Daniel came into Dallas by bus. From there, clubbing at Purgatory with compliments of Daryl for getting us in. I don't want to date Daryl. Thanks, it's flattering, but no. I'm not attracted to him in the least bit.
After that, we showed Daniel Grant's dorm hall and stayed up talking with him for a while.
The next morning I showed Daniel around school and talked to him for a while. Fed him while at it in our Ratskeller. Then we took him shopping with us and bought Chris' bday gift (tongue rings).
Later on that night we drove to UTD and decorated for his bday suprise party and then Ed showed up. Naturally I jumped on him when I saw him...which is really hard to do while running down three flights of stairs in high heels wearing a mini-jean skirt and a really pretty tight black spagetthi top (which he complimented me on...i think). Not soon after Chris, Alonso, Joel and Nikki Davis show up and then we have a small party. Few other people showed...but...hell I don't remember their names. Ed and Daniel now claim Chris to be "Extreme" Man from Harold and Kumar cause well....he is pretty wild and extreme.
We left the apartment and headed back towards UD. Yeah...there was a girl bitter circle talk and then there was me waiting till 2:30 to go talk to my boys. We chatted just like the old times. It was good. I miss that a lot too.
Well Saturday we woke up, I took Daniel and Ed to the Rat to get some grub, then we went to the Dallas Zoo (and that crazy kick ass McDonalds!). The Zoo was fun. I hadn't been since 8th grade so it had been a while. We then came back to campus, chilled, talked (well...kinda), Ed finally (I guess) paid his dues that he promised me (though it was cut short by people's interuptions), and then we watched "Snakes on a Plane" which was downloaded by April's bf Gabe.
I was very....quiet and pensive yesterday. Didn't mean to shut down again, it's just that...a lot of things have been going through my mind that it kinda hurts. And most of today.
Ed and Daniel went to bed around 5:40 this morning and well...same on my part. Woke up, and said our goodbyes. Hopefully Liz and I will go to San Antonio soon. But as for now, I'm really sad that I won't have something like them visiting to look forward to for a while. I mean, at least my parents are visiting next weekend but still...I'd wish Daniel and Ed would come back soon or I be able to visit them.
And what's the worst part about all this weekend you ask? The fact that I have nothing to say that hasn't already been said to someone who is very important to me. Why is this barrier coming up now? Now that we are in freaking college...things just seem...to stay where they left off from summer. It's so hard to move on in life when you know you have something you have deeper connections to then anything else in this world. Maybe I'm just being immature but I'm good at playing the waiting game. Sure it isn't healthy and most likely a waste of time..but you never know.
"Never say Never"
right?
oh hell, who am I kidding? I'm just going to end up being a single living with Trey's aunt the rest of my pathetic life. That or becoming a Nun and scolding people for waiting for nothing. People shouldn't have to wait....but...it happens all the damn time.