Sep 04, 2010 08:40
My name is Nicole Marie Therese Borzell Rovira. I was born twenty-four years ago tomorrow. I'm married to someone I don't really love and together we have three ridiculously attractive, smart and witty children.
I'm an almost vegetarian, perhaps striving to be vegan, sometimes. We eat some seafood and lots of eggs, and I really really love cheese. I could eat a grilled cheese sandwich with cheese on top, extra cheese on the side with melted cheese dipping sauce.
Most of the time I can see what changes I need to make in myself, my daily routine, my eating habits, my sleeping patterns, basically on a good day I can pinpoint exactly what's wrong in my life and how I could most effectively fix those problems but I lack the light-at-the-end-of-the-tunnel mentality to have enough faith in myself to really try and fix those problems. I get caught in the it-doesn't-matter-what-I-do-or-don't-do-anyway state of mind. I believe in fate, karma and a creator, but I don't know what that means for an afterlife. I know that right now I am alive and one day I will die.
I'm a virgo, I fill needs for others to hide my own faults and vulnerability. I don't let people see me cry, b you'll probably know when I am truly upset. I procrastinate. I am a hard worker but I resent a lot of the work I have to do. I bounce back and forth with hating myself and thinking I'm not so bad. I either never finish projects or throw myself head first, body and soul, 1000% in. I'm the most reliable and reasonable person I've ever met, other than my parents. You wouldn't even know if I didn't like you because I hate (for the most part) confrontation and I avoid it at basically all costs. I do however, have a breaking point and if you push far and hard enough you will see it. I believe in justice but also vengeance and PAYBACK'S A BITCH, but she's also my best friend.
I cough like my father and laugh like my mother.
A lot of nights I cry myself to sleep.