[YGO Fic] A New Chapter - Chapter Eighteen
※ Pairing - Fragileshipping
※ Warnings - It's one of my older stories.
※ Disclaimer - I obviously don't own it.
[Ryou’s Diary: Entry 311 - Date: December 18th, 1997 (Age: 11)]
Dear Diary,
Well, let’s see…where should I start? Okay, the first thing this morning at school all the classes that were participating in the ‘Secret Santa’s’ were called into our classroom. It was the biggest so it made the most sense I guess.
Anyway, Mr. Yuy started to call out names of students and they had to go up to the front of the class and their Secret Santa had to reveal themselves. Then the people who had just revealed themselves would stay and their Secret Santa would show themselves and so on. And because so many people would be in a line because of how they had pulled the names, when that line ended, Mr. Yuy would call another name.
Anyway, after a lot of people had been called Yugi was called up and his Secret Santa Malik stood up, who’s Secret Santa was Kaiba. Kaiba’s Secret Santa was Tea. Tea’s was Mai, Mai’s was Joey, Joey’s was Tristan, Tristan’s was Isis and Isis had Yugi as her Secret Santa. That had been the end of that line. After a lot more people Yami’s name was called and he stood at the front of the class, and slowly I stood up and stood beside him.
When nobody stepped forward as my Secret Santa Mr. Yuy cleared his throat when some people began to snicker. He said ‘Will Ryou’s Secret Santa please show themselves?’ And then a VERY surprising voice said from beside me ‘I’m already up here.’
Yami Motou was my Secret Santa.
I just stared at him and I felt like laughing or crying. Laughing because it was ironic, and crying because well, I don’t want to sound greedy, but not getting anything when everyone else did hurt. I mean, even a note that had said ‘Merry Christmas’ would have been great. Anyway, I wasn’t able to do either though because one of the other students mentioned about ‘getting on with it’ and Yami and I sat down.
I was really embarrassed and I just sat down at the desk I shared with Malik unable to look up. Everyone knew that I had never gotten anything and I didn’t even have to guess why not. Yami had hated me since the moment I had walked into the school so it was really no surprise. And having me live with him? I doubt that helped.
I had expected no less though so I don’t think it hurt as much as it should have. I’m not making any sense am I? I didn’t think so. I’m just really tired. I’m tired of everything. I’m beginning to think that the span of human existence would be better off without me. It’s not like anyone would miss me.
Sorry! My tears are smearing the ink on the page. This is so stupid! I’m trying not to cry but I can’t help it. I don’t want to be alone anymore; I want to be able to trust someone. What did I do? Is it because I’m gay? I know it started that way, but has all of this happened just because I like other guys? I figure most people would be happy, at least I couldn’t procreate right? Everyone probably thinks that one of me is more than enough already. But none of the people here KNOW whom I prefer!
Maybe Joey’s right, maybe I am obvious. I probably have ‘Faggot’ written on my forehead.
Great. Yami and Yugi’s friends are over and I sobbed out loud. Kaiba told me to ‘Shut the f**k up’ or he’d come up here and give me a reason to cry. I think I’m going to go to bed, at least then I won’t be able to feel anything for a while.
Goodnight.
- Ryou
※ Warnings - It's one of my older stories.
※ Disclaimer - I obviously don't own it.
[Ryou’s Diary: Entry 311 - Date: December 18th, 1997 (Age: 11)]
Dear Diary,
Well, let’s see…where should I start? Okay, the first thing this morning at school all the classes that were participating in the ‘Secret Santa’s’ were called into our classroom. It was the biggest so it made the most sense I guess.
Anyway, Mr. Yuy started to call out names of students and they had to go up to the front of the class and their Secret Santa had to reveal themselves. Then the people who had just revealed themselves would stay and their Secret Santa would show themselves and so on. And because so many people would be in a line because of how they had pulled the names, when that line ended, Mr. Yuy would call another name.
Anyway, after a lot of people had been called Yugi was called up and his Secret Santa Malik stood up, who’s Secret Santa was Kaiba. Kaiba’s Secret Santa was Tea. Tea’s was Mai, Mai’s was Joey, Joey’s was Tristan, Tristan’s was Isis and Isis had Yugi as her Secret Santa. That had been the end of that line. After a lot more people Yami’s name was called and he stood at the front of the class, and slowly I stood up and stood beside him.
When nobody stepped forward as my Secret Santa Mr. Yuy cleared his throat when some people began to snicker. He said ‘Will Ryou’s Secret Santa please show themselves?’ And then a VERY surprising voice said from beside me ‘I’m already up here.’
Yami Motou was my Secret Santa.
I just stared at him and I felt like laughing or crying. Laughing because it was ironic, and crying because well, I don’t want to sound greedy, but not getting anything when everyone else did hurt. I mean, even a note that had said ‘Merry Christmas’ would have been great. Anyway, I wasn’t able to do either though because one of the other students mentioned about ‘getting on with it’ and Yami and I sat down.
I was really embarrassed and I just sat down at the desk I shared with Malik unable to look up. Everyone knew that I had never gotten anything and I didn’t even have to guess why not. Yami had hated me since the moment I had walked into the school so it was really no surprise. And having me live with him? I doubt that helped.
I had expected no less though so I don’t think it hurt as much as it should have. I’m not making any sense am I? I didn’t think so. I’m just really tired. I’m tired of everything. I’m beginning to think that the span of human existence would be better off without me. It’s not like anyone would miss me.
Sorry! My tears are smearing the ink on the page. This is so stupid! I’m trying not to cry but I can’t help it. I don’t want to be alone anymore; I want to be able to trust someone. What did I do? Is it because I’m gay? I know it started that way, but has all of this happened just because I like other guys? I figure most people would be happy, at least I couldn’t procreate right? Everyone probably thinks that one of me is more than enough already. But none of the people here KNOW whom I prefer!
Maybe Joey’s right, maybe I am obvious. I probably have ‘Faggot’ written on my forehead.
Great. Yami and Yugi’s friends are over and I sobbed out loud. Kaiba told me to ‘Shut the f**k up’ or he’d come up here and give me a reason to cry. I think I’m going to go to bed, at least then I won’t be able to feel anything for a while.
Goodnight.
- Ryou