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Sunday: The family and I went to Big Surf. After 20-30 mins being there, Josh and I wanted to go shopping to be "dressed for the occassion." Bought some sandals, capris, and some swimming trunks.
Gail, my mothers friend/co-worker, found out about my pregnancy and congratulated me. It had been years since the last time I've seen her.
In the car on the way home, Josh had "corrected" me on how I pronounced Gail's name. I guess it came out "Gel" shrug, but I felt like the butt of all jokes so I snapped at him [which I apologized for later]. After he took my car to Autozone to find out what was wrong with it (something dealing with the Noc sensor or so they say), he came back and that's when I apologized and when I didn't get a response I asked if he was annoyed or pissed off with me and he said, "Slightly" and walked away. Right then I picked up my stuff and went for a walk to clear my head and give Josh space.
Monday came around and he had just left first thing that morning without saying a word to me. After work I went into the bedroom and basically told him that I know he's tired but we have to talk about the baby. I didn't get any response out of him. He said whatever decision I make, he's going to have to life with. At that time, I felt as if I had to get an abortion to please people and to save my relationship. One thing led to another and I got very upset. I walked in the bedroom for the second time and asked if we could only speak about this situation on his terms. Again... no response. There I was in tears.... so I called Thomy. I can always depend on him to give me the truth, no beating around the bush, and I can always talk to him when I feel as if I've hit my low point.
Comforting...
Tuesday: Still nothing.
Wednesday: I believe is when Josh said a few words to me but it was to tell me my Mother called and was very upset with me then bitched at me about what I buy when I go grocery shopping. Mother came home and of course I cried to her about what was going on. Around 10 I was getting ready for bed and my Mother confronted Josh about the silent treatment he was giving me, "Is it working?" she asked. I think they said more, but I couldn't listen to it while brushing my teeth. At about 10:45, Josh came to bed and lied down next to me. Nothing.I decided to roll over because it broke my heart that he refused to speak to me, look at me, and even touch me. A couple mins later, he rolled over and wrapped his arm around me. I felt my eyes get teary. I didn't expect him to speak to me but before my very eyes he opened his mouth and said, "I'm sorry for being an asshole." My first response was, "It's okay."
He then said, "Come here... Roll over." As soon as I rolled over, I began to cry my poor eyes out and he held me so tight. Tighter than ever. That's what I needed, that's what I had longed for. That hug filled that empty spot I had been feeling for those few days that seemed to last for such a long time.
Everything is resolved. We talk, joke, spend time together, he kisses me now and holds my hand.
Yesterday (Saturday), he invited me out. We picked up Alyssa from her other granparents and headed out to Goodyear to his parents house. Dropped Alyssa off and spent a little time with his Mother. Right before we left, his mother invited me for dinner. Afterwards, we went to Target to pick up a few things.
Then went to Pete's Fish and Chips then back to their house. Josh's Mother went to the grocery store for dinner. Before dinner however, I helped clean the kitchen for Teresa (Josh's Mother). She was very happy.
For dinner we had baked potatos, prime rib, salad, rolls, raspberry jello with whipping creme, and fruit with more whipped creme.
His parents are wonderful. They are so kind and warm and inviting. They talk to me like I'm one of theirs.
She kept telling Josh I'm great and that I'm a keeper and she likes me very much.
After dinner I had to head home (this is around 10pm). They told me I'm welcomed there anytime.
Breaking news: Josh just called me a few mins ago and told me he told his parents about 20 mins ago that we were going to have a baby.
He told his mother she's going to be a grandmother for the third time. Turns out, she's excited. "That baby is coming over here every weekend." And, "You two are going to have a beautiful baby."
His Dad laughed and said, "Cool." Then stuck his tongue out and said, "You better start using this." haha, since he already has one and is expecting another.
A huge weight has just been lifted off my shoulders. I know his parents like me very much, but to tell your family something THIS big is a lot of pressure. I haven't known his family for that long so I couldn't help but worry.
Anyway, things are much better. No stress, nothing. Maybe the whole family (mine and his) can get together and do something as a family.
Gail, my mothers friend/co-worker, found out about my pregnancy and congratulated me. It had been years since the last time I've seen her.
In the car on the way home, Josh had "corrected" me on how I pronounced Gail's name. I guess it came out "Gel" shrug, but I felt like the butt of all jokes so I snapped at him [which I apologized for later]. After he took my car to Autozone to find out what was wrong with it (something dealing with the Noc sensor or so they say), he came back and that's when I apologized and when I didn't get a response I asked if he was annoyed or pissed off with me and he said, "Slightly" and walked away. Right then I picked up my stuff and went for a walk to clear my head and give Josh space.
Monday came around and he had just left first thing that morning without saying a word to me. After work I went into the bedroom and basically told him that I know he's tired but we have to talk about the baby. I didn't get any response out of him. He said whatever decision I make, he's going to have to life with. At that time, I felt as if I had to get an abortion to please people and to save my relationship. One thing led to another and I got very upset. I walked in the bedroom for the second time and asked if we could only speak about this situation on his terms. Again... no response. There I was in tears.... so I called Thomy. I can always depend on him to give me the truth, no beating around the bush, and I can always talk to him when I feel as if I've hit my low point.
Comforting...
Tuesday: Still nothing.
Wednesday: I believe is when Josh said a few words to me but it was to tell me my Mother called and was very upset with me then bitched at me about what I buy when I go grocery shopping. Mother came home and of course I cried to her about what was going on. Around 10 I was getting ready for bed and my Mother confronted Josh about the silent treatment he was giving me, "Is it working?" she asked. I think they said more, but I couldn't listen to it while brushing my teeth. At about 10:45, Josh came to bed and lied down next to me. Nothing.I decided to roll over because it broke my heart that he refused to speak to me, look at me, and even touch me. A couple mins later, he rolled over and wrapped his arm around me. I felt my eyes get teary. I didn't expect him to speak to me but before my very eyes he opened his mouth and said, "I'm sorry for being an asshole." My first response was, "It's okay."
He then said, "Come here... Roll over." As soon as I rolled over, I began to cry my poor eyes out and he held me so tight. Tighter than ever. That's what I needed, that's what I had longed for. That hug filled that empty spot I had been feeling for those few days that seemed to last for such a long time.
Everything is resolved. We talk, joke, spend time together, he kisses me now and holds my hand.
Yesterday (Saturday), he invited me out. We picked up Alyssa from her other granparents and headed out to Goodyear to his parents house. Dropped Alyssa off and spent a little time with his Mother. Right before we left, his mother invited me for dinner. Afterwards, we went to Target to pick up a few things.
Then went to Pete's Fish and Chips then back to their house. Josh's Mother went to the grocery store for dinner. Before dinner however, I helped clean the kitchen for Teresa (Josh's Mother). She was very happy.
For dinner we had baked potatos, prime rib, salad, rolls, raspberry jello with whipping creme, and fruit with more whipped creme.
His parents are wonderful. They are so kind and warm and inviting. They talk to me like I'm one of theirs.
She kept telling Josh I'm great and that I'm a keeper and she likes me very much.
After dinner I had to head home (this is around 10pm). They told me I'm welcomed there anytime.
Breaking news: Josh just called me a few mins ago and told me he told his parents about 20 mins ago that we were going to have a baby.
He told his mother she's going to be a grandmother for the third time. Turns out, she's excited. "That baby is coming over here every weekend." And, "You two are going to have a beautiful baby."
His Dad laughed and said, "Cool." Then stuck his tongue out and said, "You better start using this." haha, since he already has one and is expecting another.
A huge weight has just been lifted off my shoulders. I know his parents like me very much, but to tell your family something THIS big is a lot of pressure. I haven't known his family for that long so I couldn't help but worry.
Anyway, things are much better. No stress, nothing. Maybe the whole family (mine and his) can get together and do something as a family.