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Went to Hot Pink on Friday - saw my pals Timmy, Ron, Angela and most of all.. Axl.
Anyway, last night was an intimate moment between Josh and I and for the first time, I felt as if he wasn't there with me; he wasn't into me, and I haven't felt unattractive like that in a very long time.
He kept saying it was hot, but it came across as an excuse after 5-10 mins and he just rolled over. Another 10 mins pass and I look up and he's passed out. By this time I was pretty bummed out and a little angry so I rolled over myself, curled into a ball, buried my face in my pillow and fell asleep.
Maybe he was tired. Maybe he was hot. And, maybe he wasn't all there last night but it leaves me confused, disappointed, bummed, and a little empty.
Is there something wrong with me? Am I really not that attractive anymore? Or is he (as well as I) in a comfort zone?
Anyway, last night was an intimate moment between Josh and I and for the first time, I felt as if he wasn't there with me; he wasn't into me, and I haven't felt unattractive like that in a very long time.
He kept saying it was hot, but it came across as an excuse after 5-10 mins and he just rolled over. Another 10 mins pass and I look up and he's passed out. By this time I was pretty bummed out and a little angry so I rolled over myself, curled into a ball, buried my face in my pillow and fell asleep.
Maybe he was tired. Maybe he was hot. And, maybe he wasn't all there last night but it leaves me confused, disappointed, bummed, and a little empty.
Is there something wrong with me? Am I really not that attractive anymore? Or is he (as well as I) in a comfort zone?