Ok...
So I'll admit it, I'm way past due for an update, and I apologize.
Aight so hurrs how Im doin this 1...I dunno it jus seems fittin...
-:- My el-jay has been on the D/L....so much to the point that some of my best of friends had no idea it exsisted, but that is changing.
-:-I have decided the following things....
*It does not bother me anymore what anyone else may think or have to say about me....
*I'm finished with molding myself into something (yes something, not someone) I don't even know, I'm someone and that person is me....
*I'm independent, and that is AWESOME, we (meaning I and other self sufficent women) break the confines of an egotistical, judgemental, and close minded society...
*I will speak my mind, and with freedom, one of my many rights...
*I will no longer cage my liberal veiws....
*I am who I am, and believe what I know is true
*I will respect myself....whether I be short, tall, fat, thin, blonde, brunette, ugly or attractive, considering these characteristics may change upon the beholder and/or situation
*I will think with my heart, not with my mind, simply because God intended us to be that way
I encourage all of those who read the above to set standards of living for yourself, much like I did, and keep them in a place to which you can refer, I chose my el-jay simply because it will never be lost or erased unless I chose to do so (delete it)
-:- The above principles are in effect now...some may dislike what they may or may not read below, it is their choice, tickle your pickle....but I will warn you, the following is ME, in black and white (literally) and if you dislke it, you dislike who I am and all that I embody, which is fine by me, I am a child of God and he is ultimately all that matters...
-:- In essence the following is UNDENIABLY TRUE....
* I was in love and may still be, Im am unsure about the matter, Brandon was my ideal, it seemed as if I lost him in a days time, which is utterly the truth, but I realize he is with someone and that he cares for her, I will and would not EVER attempt to intervene, because I wouldn't want to inflict pain/hurt upon him, because I do care for him AND that would contradict my beliefs....
*I would like to be attracted to someone else for my own personal sake, I thought I was, and I may be, to Scott Ratliff, but those are matters of the heart and I will not begin to try to understand them, simply because my knowledge of them is highly inferior to that of my creator...
*I have some good friends as well as some bad, but you can't ask for everything, the excellent can classify or identify themselves as well as the novice can....
*I do not like being the topic of condescending converstaion and /or discussion, I have nothing more to say of that matter, other than "being wierd" is a horrible excuse beyond comparison with all others, and does not begin to justify the fact that someome has a gossiping, belittling, slandering problem....however I must add that the parties are in my prayers....
If you desire to do so, leave your thoughts, comments, or maybe even complaints...
God Bless,
ashley*
Aight so hurrs how Im doin this 1...I dunno it jus seems fittin...
-:- My el-jay has been on the D/L....so much to the point that some of my best of friends had no idea it exsisted, but that is changing.
-:-I have decided the following things....
*It does not bother me anymore what anyone else may think or have to say about me....
*I'm finished with molding myself into something (yes something, not someone) I don't even know, I'm someone and that person is me....
*I'm independent, and that is AWESOME, we (meaning I and other self sufficent women) break the confines of an egotistical, judgemental, and close minded society...
*I will speak my mind, and with freedom, one of my many rights...
*I will no longer cage my liberal veiws....
*I am who I am, and believe what I know is true
*I will respect myself....whether I be short, tall, fat, thin, blonde, brunette, ugly or attractive, considering these characteristics may change upon the beholder and/or situation
*I will think with my heart, not with my mind, simply because God intended us to be that way
I encourage all of those who read the above to set standards of living for yourself, much like I did, and keep them in a place to which you can refer, I chose my el-jay simply because it will never be lost or erased unless I chose to do so (delete it)
-:- The above principles are in effect now...some may dislike what they may or may not read below, it is their choice, tickle your pickle....but I will warn you, the following is ME, in black and white (literally) and if you dislke it, you dislike who I am and all that I embody, which is fine by me, I am a child of God and he is ultimately all that matters...
-:- In essence the following is UNDENIABLY TRUE....
* I was in love and may still be, Im am unsure about the matter, Brandon was my ideal, it seemed as if I lost him in a days time, which is utterly the truth, but I realize he is with someone and that he cares for her, I will and would not EVER attempt to intervene, because I wouldn't want to inflict pain/hurt upon him, because I do care for him AND that would contradict my beliefs....
*I would like to be attracted to someone else for my own personal sake, I thought I was, and I may be, to Scott Ratliff, but those are matters of the heart and I will not begin to try to understand them, simply because my knowledge of them is highly inferior to that of my creator...
*I have some good friends as well as some bad, but you can't ask for everything, the excellent can classify or identify themselves as well as the novice can....
*I do not like being the topic of condescending converstaion and /or discussion, I have nothing more to say of that matter, other than "being wierd" is a horrible excuse beyond comparison with all others, and does not begin to justify the fact that someome has a gossiping, belittling, slandering problem....however I must add that the parties are in my prayers....
If you desire to do so, leave your thoughts, comments, or maybe even complaints...
God Bless,
ashley*