LONELY
Okay, so as I write this I try to hold the tears back. The pain rips straight through my heart. Me and Chris...I dunno. He has not been home in 6 days now. Noway to get in touch with him either. My heart is all his whenever he decides that he wants me back or if he wants to talk to me. I'm not going anywhere anytime soon. I don't want another relationship. They suck! I want Chris' relationship. Only Chris. If he decides to read this. Chris I love you sweety and I need you. Oh well guess that's the only thing I can do. Maybe I fucked up this time. Maybe it was all me. Maybe I did push us apart and I am trying to fix it. Just know that no matter what happens I am no longer hanging out with any guys as friends because it ruins things I am strictly Chris's, Dudes who read this...feel free to leave a comment but only if you want to be friends as reading journal friends. That's it. Well just thought I would let you and the world know how things are at the moment...not so swift. I'll keep you updated though. Gotta go. I'm out.