To med or not to med
So I was on Sertraline for a while and then decided to stop taking it.
I have been off it for a 8 months now and I feel things are now getting worse.
Things were going well for a while, but lately I just can't sleep without taking Zzzquill or something like that. I also notice sharp mood swings. And the desire to just be a hermit. This is even happening at work. My door is constantly closed... not so great when your the fuckin' help desk. My job is to help people. But lately, fuck them. I don't want to help or see anyone.
Even my bestest friend here. I consider him a brother of sorts. I don't want to talk with him. I don't want to see him. But then a part of wants to run up to him and hug him.
Fuck I'm messed up.
Over all I do like my job and where I work. But I'm in a rut and wish I could quit. But I know if I do I would have to work in a real office where I would not have an office, well storage room that I sit in. I would not be able listen to music or movies all day. And *gasp* I would have to probably dress up. No shorts/jeans & t-shirts.
Le Sigh.
Maybe I should just start med'ing again. Worse case I'd be numb. Maybe that's not a bad thing.
I have been off it for a 8 months now and I feel things are now getting worse.
Things were going well for a while, but lately I just can't sleep without taking Zzzquill or something like that. I also notice sharp mood swings. And the desire to just be a hermit. This is even happening at work. My door is constantly closed... not so great when your the fuckin' help desk. My job is to help people. But lately, fuck them. I don't want to help or see anyone.
Even my bestest friend here. I consider him a brother of sorts. I don't want to talk with him. I don't want to see him. But then a part of wants to run up to him and hug him.
Fuck I'm messed up.
Over all I do like my job and where I work. But I'm in a rut and wish I could quit. But I know if I do I would have to work in a real office where I would not have an office, well storage room that I sit in. I would not be able listen to music or movies all day. And *gasp* I would have to probably dress up. No shorts/jeans & t-shirts.
Le Sigh.
Maybe I should just start med'ing again. Worse case I'd be numb. Maybe that's not a bad thing.