Isn't life just magical...
If I am alone on this one, someone please let me know...
I just can't get over the feeling that I am not the only one in his life. It sucks. I can't sleep right, I can't eat right. I have my reasons not to trust him, but my heart wants so bad to believe that he is faithful. I ask him and he says he is. But I read text messages to other girls that are completely disrespectful to me. I mean, why can't he text ME those things. Or tell me I'm beautiful. He says he only does it because it is "fun" and that he is just joking so I shouldn't worry. I should. That is not fair to me, right? I don't do things like that because it only hurts.
He tells me he loves me but he is not "in love" with me. He says that he has let himself fall in love before and he had his heart broken. SO HAVE I!!! Damnit, I took a chance at love with him, why can't he do the same for me? I love him as a person, a best friend and a lover. But I am also very deeply in love with him. I want him to feel the same for me too. Thats all... I just love him.
It hurts all the time knowing that he does love me but he won't let himself fall in love with me. I understand getting hurt. I understand it all too well. But I gave him a chance, and he has hurt me still, but I am still here trying. And he can't even do that for me when I have never hurt him.
I just don't get it....
It just hurts...
I just can't get over the feeling that I am not the only one in his life. It sucks. I can't sleep right, I can't eat right. I have my reasons not to trust him, but my heart wants so bad to believe that he is faithful. I ask him and he says he is. But I read text messages to other girls that are completely disrespectful to me. I mean, why can't he text ME those things. Or tell me I'm beautiful. He says he only does it because it is "fun" and that he is just joking so I shouldn't worry. I should. That is not fair to me, right? I don't do things like that because it only hurts.
He tells me he loves me but he is not "in love" with me. He says that he has let himself fall in love before and he had his heart broken. SO HAVE I!!! Damnit, I took a chance at love with him, why can't he do the same for me? I love him as a person, a best friend and a lover. But I am also very deeply in love with him. I want him to feel the same for me too. Thats all... I just love him.
It hurts all the time knowing that he does love me but he won't let himself fall in love with me. I understand getting hurt. I understand it all too well. But I gave him a chance, and he has hurt me still, but I am still here trying. And he can't even do that for me when I have never hurt him.
I just don't get it....
It just hurts...