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a constant fight against the self
seeking a rest, yet finding more neccesity to tread
enduring sticks stones names and ensuing selfdenial
contradicting evolution, purportedly infertile
a useless womb, cannot benefit the future, nor the present.
electrolytic chemical burns
regrooving of bone structures
reorienting of tendons, restructuring of muscle deposits
mis firing of balances brought about by innefective re coupling, impolitely suggesting self destruction
forehead reshaping, cheek bones chisled
coupling bones with wires
shaving of cartilage, bone, muscle, and every other human tissue/object
sawing through muscles and tendons
re shaping neurological endpoints
restructuring skin conditions
grafting skin
jaw reduction, chin reduction, maxillary bone shortening
healing
pain
rebirthing
moving on
expereincing balance
im scared. im oh so scared. why me. i do not want this. I DO NOT WANT THIS. nothing else i can do will stop the reminder.
i wish i was strong enough.
to face it, to take it like a woman.
or to end it.
whats the point anyways were all maggot fodder.
there is a underlying thread to the millions of personalities that float in my being. all ofwhich polarized in their own light, each crying for a shout through ego. cannot identify a singular being which coexists with the feelings i feel. cannot identify a single shape that is fitting the event horizon of a backlogged hourglass.
every step forward brings me 15 steps into oblivion.
coercing the self that hell is not proper, oblivion seems fitting.
cthulhu, come to me so that i may embrace nothing but everlasting. my soul is yours for the taking.
seeking a rest, yet finding more neccesity to tread
enduring sticks stones names and ensuing selfdenial
contradicting evolution, purportedly infertile
a useless womb, cannot benefit the future, nor the present.
electrolytic chemical burns
regrooving of bone structures
reorienting of tendons, restructuring of muscle deposits
mis firing of balances brought about by innefective re coupling, impolitely suggesting self destruction
forehead reshaping, cheek bones chisled
coupling bones with wires
shaving of cartilage, bone, muscle, and every other human tissue/object
sawing through muscles and tendons
re shaping neurological endpoints
restructuring skin conditions
grafting skin
jaw reduction, chin reduction, maxillary bone shortening
healing
pain
rebirthing
moving on
expereincing balance
im scared. im oh so scared. why me. i do not want this. I DO NOT WANT THIS. nothing else i can do will stop the reminder.
i wish i was strong enough.
to face it, to take it like a woman.
or to end it.
whats the point anyways were all maggot fodder.
there is a underlying thread to the millions of personalities that float in my being. all ofwhich polarized in their own light, each crying for a shout through ego. cannot identify a singular being which coexists with the feelings i feel. cannot identify a single shape that is fitting the event horizon of a backlogged hourglass.
every step forward brings me 15 steps into oblivion.
coercing the self that hell is not proper, oblivion seems fitting.
cthulhu, come to me so that i may embrace nothing but everlasting. my soul is yours for the taking.