* -..I miss you
*.-It's amazing how someone can break your heart, but u can still love them with ever broken piece of it*.-
Hey! Wow, its been a while since I have updated! Things have been going ok I guess. LIfe still hasn't changed any. Im so glad school is out for the summer. I was soo stressed with it and work that it wasn't even funny. I guess because online English was a hard class to take!
I started at Food City part time and its just causing me more stress and stuff sooo Im pretty sure its not going to work out. I mean I work at Tri-City's 3 days a week soo I don't want to spend my whole summer at a work place! Im leaving Saturday morning around 5 to go to Marlinton, WV for a graduation! Don't know if we are staying up there that night or not! We was going to the lake for memorial weekend and stuff but dad has to work and all soo!
Speaking of the lake, vacation isn't far off. In a way I am excited but in a way Im not. Its where I met the love of my life and to know that we are going to probably meet face to face again really breaks my heart! I think about him from time to time and wonder what he's doing. I sit and try to wonder if he is ever thinking about me like I do him. I wanna pick up the phone all the time and call just to hear his voice but I know Ill either not get an answer and he will pick it up and be hateful about things! I know he's probably always thinking about her whatever though... All I can say is I loved him with everything in me and I would have given anything for us to still be together! Its gettin to the point where every song I hear reminds me of just him or all of our memories together. Its been about 5 months now and ya know I should have been able to get over him as quick as he has me. I've hung out with a couple of guys since our break up. I first hung out with Chris B ( one of nat's friends from the mines) but things just didn't seem to work. I duno...I liked him and things were good until the ex came back into the picture. I had already been put through enough with the whole nathan deal I didn't want to have to again. I hung out with a guy named Ryan and all and things were fun, we had a GREAT time together and all but hes just here for a short time. Friends is all it will ever be! Im just not going to try anymore to find anyone. I have been just to ease the pain of losin nathan but that doesn't help. it only makes it worse, because I always compare the people to nathan. We go somewhere to eat then im thinking about the memories me and nathan made at that place. It SUCKS it really does.... I love Nathan and ALWAYS will!*
But I guess since Im through venting and all I can just quit!
I hope everyone else is doing great and has a good summer!!!!
Hey! Wow, its been a while since I have updated! Things have been going ok I guess. LIfe still hasn't changed any. Im so glad school is out for the summer. I was soo stressed with it and work that it wasn't even funny. I guess because online English was a hard class to take!
I started at Food City part time and its just causing me more stress and stuff sooo Im pretty sure its not going to work out. I mean I work at Tri-City's 3 days a week soo I don't want to spend my whole summer at a work place! Im leaving Saturday morning around 5 to go to Marlinton, WV for a graduation! Don't know if we are staying up there that night or not! We was going to the lake for memorial weekend and stuff but dad has to work and all soo!
Speaking of the lake, vacation isn't far off. In a way I am excited but in a way Im not. Its where I met the love of my life and to know that we are going to probably meet face to face again really breaks my heart! I think about him from time to time and wonder what he's doing. I sit and try to wonder if he is ever thinking about me like I do him. I wanna pick up the phone all the time and call just to hear his voice but I know Ill either not get an answer and he will pick it up and be hateful about things! I know he's probably always thinking about her whatever though... All I can say is I loved him with everything in me and I would have given anything for us to still be together! Its gettin to the point where every song I hear reminds me of just him or all of our memories together. Its been about 5 months now and ya know I should have been able to get over him as quick as he has me. I've hung out with a couple of guys since our break up. I first hung out with Chris B ( one of nat's friends from the mines) but things just didn't seem to work. I duno...I liked him and things were good until the ex came back into the picture. I had already been put through enough with the whole nathan deal I didn't want to have to again. I hung out with a guy named Ryan and all and things were fun, we had a GREAT time together and all but hes just here for a short time. Friends is all it will ever be! Im just not going to try anymore to find anyone. I have been just to ease the pain of losin nathan but that doesn't help. it only makes it worse, because I always compare the people to nathan. We go somewhere to eat then im thinking about the memories me and nathan made at that place. It SUCKS it really does.... I love Nathan and ALWAYS will!*
But I guess since Im through venting and all I can just quit!
I hope everyone else is doing great and has a good summer!!!!