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holy shit.
why do i freaking love tj so much? why the fuck? because he told me he doesn't want me. but here i sit holding the fat max and puting my head right next to the computer tripping out to sandstorm... and pretending that i'm sitting in the kia with flashing lights around me. really i'm just laying on a rickety glass table in john's appartment wishing that kyle and juliana didn't have the shit locked in their room and avoiding laying on the futon with john. it's fucked up...sitting with the smoke from my cigarette curling up into my nose and slugging down my beer. i don't want john and he's like in love with me. what the fuck do i do when all i want is to feel tj under my lips? this might destroy me.
help me.
why do i freaking love tj so much? why the fuck? because he told me he doesn't want me. but here i sit holding the fat max and puting my head right next to the computer tripping out to sandstorm... and pretending that i'm sitting in the kia with flashing lights around me. really i'm just laying on a rickety glass table in john's appartment wishing that kyle and juliana didn't have the shit locked in their room and avoiding laying on the futon with john. it's fucked up...sitting with the smoke from my cigarette curling up into my nose and slugging down my beer. i don't want john and he's like in love with me. what the fuck do i do when all i want is to feel tj under my lips? this might destroy me.
help me.