Finding Beauty In The Dissonance.
Me and Vix sorted things out a few nights ago, or at least I hope we did. It's been so hard this year to keep ourselves together. We've argued so many times, and I guess we both know now that we should've been there for each other more. I think I need to see her again to truly remember what we had, but for now I'm just going to try and shake off anything that gets to me, and just remember that she doesn't need any more troubles to add to the ones she's already going through. If you're reading this babe, just know I'm always here, and even if I seem annoyed, you can get through to me by saying something immature. :) I love you!
Went down the Grande last night. It was a pretty good night, I guess. I saw some people I haven't seen in a while. Alex was there - the guy who used to drink 3 litres of vodka in a night and was told never to drink again. More importantly, John was there. I haven't seen him or spoken to him since we went out to Chinnerys and he stayed at my house; when I found out about what he'd done with Kel when we were going out. I don't hold grudges. We talked about what we'd been up to, and it felt kind of awkward not saying anything about his brother. Anyway, I told him I'd call him within three days and we could go out some time. I don't know whether I should, but it'd be nice to catch up, no matter how nervous I was talking to him. Apparently he said something to Cass that I can only just believe, but I don't want to get involved anyway.
Why did I ever get involved with this? I guess I forgot how it felt. Now I don't know what I'm doing, and I find myself caring beyond my will.
It's 11:11. Heh. It's not hard to dream.
x X x Keep safe.
Went down the Grande last night. It was a pretty good night, I guess. I saw some people I haven't seen in a while. Alex was there - the guy who used to drink 3 litres of vodka in a night and was told never to drink again. More importantly, John was there. I haven't seen him or spoken to him since we went out to Chinnerys and he stayed at my house; when I found out about what he'd done with Kel when we were going out. I don't hold grudges. We talked about what we'd been up to, and it felt kind of awkward not saying anything about his brother. Anyway, I told him I'd call him within three days and we could go out some time. I don't know whether I should, but it'd be nice to catch up, no matter how nervous I was talking to him. Apparently he said something to Cass that I can only just believe, but I don't want to get involved anyway.
Why did I ever get involved with this? I guess I forgot how it felt. Now I don't know what I'm doing, and I find myself caring beyond my will.
It's 11:11. Heh. It's not hard to dream.
x X x Keep safe.