O and Meaningless jobs
so im back in chitown for summer. if you about that area, feel free to drop by. downstairs tenants gone and i found the door is unlocked so instaplace. landlord's even keepin bunch of champagne downtheir. got a job being typist/filing clerk for my property tax attorney uncle. yeah? reading story of O. and the vampires bloodline game i bought today does not work. stuipid technology. so much to do, so little i remember or care to do. feel like taking midnite 8 mile hikes into city, but i got get up at 730 tomorrow. i feel so old as of late. i got ahces and pains from cleaning and moving the house. i didnt use to get aches and pains like that. bodies stopepd growin. so much stuff, so little needed. decorations, pretensious literature, burn reads, sketchy shiites. sis leaving in two weeks. sis coming in two weeks. theirs nothing to eat in this house. just lots of food i dont feel like eating. and the 711 people ar all different and i dont know them. summer for me is alwys such a weird time. actually, its only been a weird time since going to college, where i actually havea life and so feel odd missing out on it. their is life here, but only derived from college, as the closest friends from highland disappear and while helen at points tries to give me some life here i wont degrade myself to the point of always hagnign with here generally annyoing firends. found old newspaper from highland about me being the "most individualistic". what the fuck does that mean? that since i basically did not interact with anybody at my highland i was individualistc? or was it my constant reading, my total ignorance of school social life, my at points non sequitors or the fact that almost all of the people for senior pics wore something nice and i wore a flannel and ratty jeans? why am i ranting now? i fear ill beocme an alchi while here as if i have to get up early and then go home with mums were both just gonna finish off bottle of wine ecah afterwards while sitting around doin nothin. congratualtions, you read to the bottom of the rant.