I think everything counts a little more than we think
The National "Ada"
My mind has been stuck on a couple of things lately. Lost might be an understatement. In true Livejournal form, I'm gonna list em.
1- Moving back to AZ. I want it so bad. There's a job idea that I want to apply for. Part of my reluctance in just doing it already is I couldn't afford to get there for an interview. I think this is something I really want.
2- Moving back to AZ part 2. I have some fear that moving back will mean falling back into old habits. Not all of them. There's worry about things being pretty much exactly as I left them. I don't really want THAT. Hope I don't forget the rest of what I meant.
3- Moving back to AZ part 3. I'm going to miss the few people here who've made my stay here less shitty. Cass, Paul and Aaron have done so much for me. I want to bring them with, because I don't want to lose them.
4- Investment. Not in the monetary sense, but time/thoughts/feelings. I have on multiple occasions sworn to not force myself into other peoples lives. I've done a shitty job at doing that. I pay too much attention and get not enough return. Its annoying and you think I'd be used to it. I would say I'll just give the cold shoulder, but I cave on that too.
5- I keep vague tweeting and when I eventually go back to read them, I've lost what some meant.
I'm sure there's more. I could have definitely elaborated some more on them, but I haven't the energy to do so. Writing what I have was taxing enough.
The weather has changed. It happened all so quickly and I'm embracing it. This is 'cuddle a cute boy while watching a movie together' weather. Fuck.
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