I waited a full day to post anything because I didn't want a ton of people to read it. It's something I've never talked about anywhere publically. Because I'm afraid that people will think I'm a freak.
Typing it is hard. I keep procrastinating.
I'm hopelessly attracted to fat men. The fatter, the better, as long as they're healthy and take care of themselves. And I've met several like that. One in particular, I wanted to date so badly. He weighs about 400 pounds, and I think he's stunning. I can't keep my hands off him when he's around. Not to mention everything we have in common. But I invited him to a party at my parents' house, and my mom made fun of him to me behind his back. It just reinforced my belief that people wouldn't understand, and I'M not self-confident enough to deal with the criticism. How terrible is that? I don't know how to get over that.
I am not even the least bit sexually attracted to thin men. I've tried. I dated a thin guy for nine months in college, and we never had sex because I just couldn't get into it. I loved his personality, but I wasn't attracted to him. It's the exact opposite problem that most girls have with fat guys.
I'd marry Kevin James in a heartbeat. He's beautiful and hilarious. If he was 6'3", he'd be my ideal man.
Most of all, I'm afraid I'll be alone forever because I can't get over what other people will say. I don't want to be alone because I'm a coward.
god, you are not a freak. Don't ever think that. I have a secret I can't even share anonymously that's not about me, but someone else, and knowing it really has changed my perspective on people and their attractions.
Everybody has a type. Some will deny it, but we all feel an attraction to a certain type of person more than others. For a lot of girls, it seems to be tall and thin. Who knows if that's really their choice, or what society tells them they're supposed to prefer. I find myself attracted to Indian men in recent months. Whatever.
Just because you like heavy men does NOT make you a freak. Just because they're not thin and society's ideal man, doesn't mean they don't deserve to be loved. Stop letting what other people think dictate how you feel. You don't deserve to be unhappy just because some people around you can't get over ridiculous details. Tell your mom and everyone else to shut the hell up, or let me do it.
Typing it is hard. I keep procrastinating.
I'm hopelessly attracted to fat men. The fatter, the better, as long as they're healthy and take care of themselves. And I've met several like that. One in particular, I wanted to date so badly. He weighs about 400 pounds, and I think he's stunning. I can't keep my hands off him when he's around. Not to mention everything we have in common. But I invited him to a party at my parents' house, and my mom made fun of him to me behind his back. It just reinforced my belief that people wouldn't understand, and I'M not self-confident enough to deal with the criticism. How terrible is that? I don't know how to get over that.
I am not even the least bit sexually attracted to thin men. I've tried. I dated a thin guy for nine months in college, and we never had sex because I just couldn't get into it. I loved his personality, but I wasn't attracted to him. It's the exact opposite problem that most girls have with fat guys.
I'd marry Kevin James in a heartbeat. He's beautiful and hilarious. If he was 6'3", he'd be my ideal man.
Most of all, I'm afraid I'll be alone forever because I can't get over what other people will say. I don't want to be alone because I'm a coward.
Please tell me I'm not a freak.
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Everybody has a type. Some will deny it, but we all feel an attraction to a certain type of person more than others. For a lot of girls, it seems to be tall and thin. Who knows if that's really their choice, or what society tells them they're supposed to prefer. I find myself attracted to Indian men in recent months. Whatever.
Just because you like heavy men does NOT make you a freak. Just because they're not thin and society's ideal man, doesn't mean they don't deserve to be loved. Stop letting what other people think dictate how you feel. You don't deserve to be unhappy just because some people around you can't get over ridiculous details. Tell your mom and everyone else to shut the hell up, or let me do it.
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